Complications Throughout Generations

Chapter 16

Levi's POV:

Some time had passed. We were in Marley. Eren and I were still "together". But he's changed. Things hadn't been going the way I had hoped.

"It's been too long, Levi." Hange scolded with her arms crossed. "How long do you plan on keeping this up? Because clearly it's not working the way you had hoped."

"As long as I have to." I grit through my teeth.

"If I knew any better, I'd say you've fallen for him."

She was right. That's also what changed. The more I noticed him slipping away, the stronger my feelings grew. Not even he knows that. But maybe I should tell him since the situation has seemed to be getting mildly worse.

"Tch," I scoffed and rolled my eyes. "Please."

"Levi." She seemed more sympathetic.

"So what if I have?" My tone was dark. She sighed and held the bridge of her nose.

"Do you think this has helped at all?"

"I think it's held him off for a bit. Ever since the ceremony where he literally froze, he hasn't been the same." I remembered that night like it was yesterday. The night I realized my feelings for him.

"That's something at least. Has he told you anything?"

"No." That made me nervous. He used to be so open, now I feel like he hides everything from me. And I mean everything. In the beginning, he was so eager to tell me everything. He had no issue showing how much he cared for me. I used to be spoiled with affection when it was just the two of us. It was euphoric. But now I'd be lucky to even get a kiss from him. I bit my lip. I was getting worked up but I couldn't let Hange see. So I just sighed and closed my eyes.

"What are you gonna do?" She questioned.

"I won't leave him if that's what you're asking."

"I know, Levi. I know."

"But I'm afraid that he'll leave me one day." I whispered.

"Are you really?"

"What do you expect?" I raised my voice. "Yeah, I love him, Hange. I hate that I do. I have for a while. But it is what it is. There's no going back now."

The nights we used to share made sure of that. Him sneaking over to me every night. Our long talks. Our bodies entangled with him on top of me, showering me with passion and need for my affection. He used to need me. Now I'm the one that needs him. I miss him. He may still be with me, but is he really? Maybe he doesn't have the strength to tell me he doesn't want to be with me anymore? Because he certainly doesn't act like he wants to be. That pains me more than anything. What could I have possibly done?

"Levi, I think you should tell him." I wasn't expecting that.

"Why?"

"That may be the push he needs to avoid what we believe is coming. Maybe he'll see that all he needs in this life is you. Not the death of millions. His freedom that he wants so bad could be you and him together."

Maybe...

Eren's POV:

"Are you gonna tell him?" Mikasa asked, sitting next to me with her head on my shoulder. Her and Armin had both known about me and Levi. Mikasa was actually the one that made me realize what Levi was trying to do to me. But the second I started to distance myself, the difference was drastic. He fell in love with me. Captain Levi actually fell in love with me. I'm sure of it. That's not why I put the space in between us though. But that's what I've led Mikasa and Armin to believe.

"No." I shook my head then resting my head on top of hers. "He probably already knows and he's too afraid to say anything."

"You need to man up and tell him you don't want to be with him anymore. You can't expect him to say something like that. You know he loves you."
Truth is, I love him. I love him more than words can possibly express. But I need to follow through with my plan.

"I know." I sigh.

I lifted my head off hers and gave her a weak smile.

"I love you, Eren." She blurted out. Both our eyes went wide. You could see the instant regret on her face. "Oh my god, I'm so sor-"

I cut her off with a kiss and she melted at my touch. She kissed back like it was going to be her last moment on Earth. This wasn't for the reason she may think.

I was leaving. This was my goodbye.