Complications Throughout Generations

Chapter 164

Eren's POV:

Some time has passed. Halloween is coming up. Of course, it's a party at Historia's. She seems to take all the major holidays and milestones when it comes to her parties. There have been others thrown by random people in our grade but the turn out was never like Historia's.

Levi has been better. I'm really proud of him. He's put on at least 10 pounds. He's doing small workouts at home; he says he isn't ready to go to a public gym just yet. He still hasn't gone back to school yet though. But at least they're letting Mikasa and Hange take his work home. I've been there every night to make sure he sleeps. But that's finally been enough for my mother.

"We need to talk." She had her arms crossed and stood in the middle of my room.

"About?" I was scrolling through Tik Tok on my phone, not caring about the sound. I tried to seem as nonchalant as possible but I knew what this was about.

"You can't be staying over at Levi's every night, it's unhealthy."

"How?" That literally makes no sense.

"Because you're practically babysitting him. He has his sisters. He needs to get himself together on his own. When was the last time you focused on yourself?"

"I focus on what's important."

"Is your family not important?" She was beginning to get frustrated.

"What kind of question is that?" I was also beginning to lose my patience.

"One that needs to be asked, Eren. You haven't slept in your own bed in a month! You're never home! Your entire world revolves around Levi. It's unhealthy."

I groaned and stared at the ceiling. "If you want me to sleep here, that's all you had to say."

"Without Levi."

"Not gonna happen."

"Don't talk back to me."

"Then we should end this conversation and act like it never happened."

I got off my bed and walked to my closet to grab a sweatshirt.

"Where do you think you're going?" She was in disbelief that I even thought about leaving after her little tantrum.

"Levi's. Where else?" She stood in front of the door so I couldn't get past her. "How about this? I'll go pick him up and bring him here so I stay in the house, sound good?" The last thing I want to do is get into a fight with my mother. I'm trying the best I can right now to keep it together but she's really pushing it.

"No." She was stern.

"Alright, what's your deal with Levi? You've always had some issue with him and I'm tired of ignoring it. Tell me. Now."

I could never figure out why my mom didn't like Levi. That's also why we rarely went to my house. Sometimes I couldn't help but feel it was because of our sexualities. I never wanted to think that low of her but the thought has always stayed for as long as I could remember.

"I don't want to talk about this." She avoided the question which could only confirm my suspicions.

"Mom, please." I was scared and she could tell with the change of tone in my voice.

"I was just hoping you'd grow out of this." She shook her head.

"Grow out of what?"

"This." She waved her hand up and down. "Being gay."

"I'm not gay."

"What's the difference? You're still dating a boy!"

My heart was pounding out of my chest. It's almost as if everything made sense now. How she would always give me a hard time whenever I was home, ignoring Levi or giving me the cold shoulder.

"Please, if you think me being bisexual is the worst thing about me then you should really be afraid." I shook my head and crossed my arms, leaning against the door frame.

"What's that supposed to mean?" She was immediately afraid. Yeah, I have a shit plan. But it'll definitely drag her mind away from this bullshit.

"Dad!" I called out. He immediately came out of his study and over to us.

"Is everything okay?" He asked, looking at the both of us.

"Tell her." I kept eye contact with her. He knows what I'm talking about.

"Eren." He whispered.

"Tell me what?" She shouted. "Grisha, what is he talking about?"

"Carla...honey." He started to panic.

"Tell her."

"Eren, please." He begged.

"On your feet, dad. You're not done yet. In case, you've forgotten, you have your own reasons for coming. You had a little sister till that man fed her to his dogs. Think of your slaughtered comrades. Of Kruger, of Dina. Avenge them. Keep moving forward. Even if you die, even after you die. After all...this whole ugly story started with you."

"Tell her now!" I shouted. That moment where Zeke and I went to past memories was all I could think about. "Tell her what we were! Tell her who you are! Tell her who I am!"

"What is he talking about, Grisha?" My mother was crying at this point.

My father has been afraid of me ever since he got his memory back. Being that that's one of the last memory he has of me, how could he not be? I'm the reason he slaughtered the Reiss family.

"Come with me." He mumbled and took her to his study. Once the door closed, the feeling in my legs gave out and I fell on my knees.

"What the fuck is wrong with me?" I whispered to myself.

"Oh my god!" I heard my mother shriek behind the closed door. I can't imagine what he just told her truthfully. "He's a monster!" She cried.

Yup. Bet it all makes sense why I don't want to pay attention to myself now, doesn't it. I don't want to think about who I feel like I am. To me, I'll always be that person who destroyed the world. Who killed friends. Betrayed their trust. I regret hurting them. Everyone in Paradis. But...I don't regret anything else. The Rumbling. I wanted them to die. After everything they had done. The outside world was a filthy place that needed to be ridded of its corruption. The world needed to be saved from the reign of Titans...of me.

"Carla, please." I heard my father say.

"No! So are you! Both of you!"

The door slammed open and she stormed into her bedroom.

"Honey, don't go." He chased after her. I didn't expect her to leave truthfully.

"No." She came out of her room with a suitcase and mascara running down her cheeks. She stopped in front of me. "You are not my son. I-I don't even know who you are." Then she looked at my father. "And you...how could you keep this from me?"

"Because that's not who I am. That's not who Eren is! We're a family, Carla. I am your husband, Eren is your son. You are my wife and you are his mother."

"Not anymore." She cried.

She turned away and ran down the stairs with her suitcase then slammed the front door closed. My father and I stood in silence.

I fucked up. Big time.