Complications Throughout Generations

Chapter 145

Levi's POV:

"Levi," multiple voices were calling softly. It sounded muffled, almost as if I was under water. I blinked my eyes open but only slightly. Hange and Mikasa were bent down on either side of me with Eren standing in the middle at my feet.

"Did I seriously faint?" My voice was raspy and my throat felt sore. "Where are we?" I didn't have the strength to lift myself up to see.

"The ground." Hange said. Wow, what a wonderful place to put someone who just fainted.

"On the ground where?"

"The living room."

"You couldn't of put me on the couch, you fucks?" I groaned, trying to sit up.

"We were laying on it."

"Unbelievable. How long have I been out?"

"5 hours," Mikasa said.

"What are you doing here?" Mikasa and Hange both knew I was referring to Eren.

"He's the one that got you in the car, Levi."

"Thanks, you can leave now." Eren nodded without a word and started to walk to the door.

"Stay." Mikasa held her hand out making him stop in his tracks.

"No, Mikasa. He can fucking leave actually." Eren was again walking to the door.

"Eren, you're staying." Hange said and stood up.

"Eren, go to my room." Mikasa said then Eren nodded and went upstairs.

The level of betrayal I feel from Mikasa and Hange is unfathomable. They know I don't want to be near him and now they're telling him to stay? Are you serious?

"Fuck you both, I'm going to my room." I strained, trying to get off the ground. "See you in a month, traitors."

"Levi, be reasonable." Hange said.

"No, you be reasonable!" I raised my voice and pointed at her. "That is my forever ex boyfriend up in your room." I then pointed at Mikasa. "And you're just going to let him stay around after all this?"

"Levi, cut it out and shut up. Just go to your room and do some self reflecting or something." Mikasa seemed officially fed up with me. Fine, she can be that way all she wants. "I'm going upstairs." She said and turned towards the staircase.

"Try not to fuck him." I mumbled.

"That's it!" Mikasa shouted and charged at me, knocking me to the ground. This reminds me of when we were on the rooftop and I was about to choose Erwin over Armin. "This isn't Eren's fault, Levi. Stop being in denial. He would've been here for you unlike any other through all of this but you've pushed him away as far as you possibly can. But you know what? He's here for me and Hange because he loved mom too. You know that. We're all in pain, Levi. Not just you. You may have watched her die but Eren saw it too. None of us are okay. So stop acting like no one's emotions matter except yours. You fucking wonder why people call you a narcissist? Well now you know." She got off me and stormed upstairs. I just stayed flat on the ground, paying attention to my headache that I just received. Hange walked over to me and held a hand out for me to take which I declined and stubbornly got up myself.

"She's right, you know." Hange sighed.

"Whatever." I walked upstairs to my room and slammed my door shut. I took my suit off from before and opened my drawer only to find one of Eren's shirts. "God, I gotta get rid of this stuff." I felt my eyes begin to water and I shook my head, not allowing myself to get emotional over him. Instead of putting a shirt on, I just kept my chest exposed then looked over at myself in the mirror. I looked absolutely disgusting. Not a lot of damage can be done in a week of not eating much but there's still a noticeable difference. But even seeing it, it wasn't enough for me to fix the problem. Not being able to handle the sight of my reflection anymore, I got in my bed and stared at the ceiling. But then the thought of sharing it with Eren in the past haunted me and eventually made me break down the same way I've been doing since that night. I grabbed onto the pillow he usually slept on and held it close to me. This feeling is all too familiar. You fall in love, he fucks up, you hate him for hurting you, you fall in love all over again even though he's a monster. No. I'm not allowed to miss him. I need to be done with him now. He's still a part of this.