Complications Throughout Generations

Chapter 186

Eren's POV:

Historia was having one of her typical holiday parties tonight. With Christmas only a couple weeks away, might as well. Of course, it took some convincing but maybe it'll be good for me.

"Loosen up," Jean whispered in my ear, already not in the right state of mind, "just this once."

"I'm pretty loose," I laughed but then my eyes went wide with the realization of what I just said. "Not like that, you know that."

"Do I?" He smirked, slowly pinning me to a wall.

"Jean, you're drunk."

"Alright," I raised my hands and backed away. It was no mystery to anyone that I was also on that list of people he wishes he could have but can't. "Where's my drink?" I mumbled to myself. Not caring, I just grabbed a random cup on the counter and downed it. This little method of mine continued for about an hour. It was all rushing to my head fairly quickly. I relaxed in the feeling of instability, letting myself feel almost free from my current troubles. I found Reiner and was almost on the verge of tears.

"Eren, you okay?" He panicked.

"Is this Kanye?" Reiner was heavily confused by my sudden emotion. "God, I fucking love this song." It was in fact Flashing Lights blasting through the speaker in the house. "What do I know?" I started to sing and dance, feeling like I was giving the performance of my life. "Flashing...Lights." I continued, completely in my element. My eyes caught Historia running to the front door and my heart almost stopped. "Frieda." I whispered, dropping my drink on the ground. I walked over to the music and lowered it and stood in the middle of the room. "Hey!" I shouted, getting everyone's attention. "Everyone needs to bow the fuck down to Queen Historia and the Founding Titan, Frieda Reiss!" Next thing you know, I was on the ground.

"Will you shut the fuck up?" Reiner tackled me. The music went back to normal and Historia came rushing over to us.

"What's going on with him tonight?" She asked Reiner but I just kept my eyes on Frieda.

"Hey Frieda," I slurred, "sorry about your fam. That's my bad." Reiner slapped his hand over my mouth.

"Who is this?" Frieda asked Historia. I struggled to get Reiner's hand off my face but I did in fact succeed.

"Jaeger." Was all I managed to get out. But that was enough for her to know exactly who I was.

"Reiner, get him out of here." Historia grit through her teeth.

"I'll take him upstairs."

"Good."

He got off and offered me a hand. I acted like I was going to grab it but then I quickly ran off and went right back to the alcohol sitting on the table just waiting to be consumed.

"Jean." I smiled at him but he wasn't looking at me, he was looking at Reiner. They both nodded.

"Come here," Jean said to me then took my hand. "We're going upstairs." I was excited to be with him. He took care of me whenever I needed it. In any way I wanted. He took us in the guest room and closed the door. I pushed him down on the bed and took my shirt off. "Eren." His voice was shaky. I took his off for him as he backed up on the bed. We kicked our shoes off as we both got into position of me over him and him underneath. "Eren, listen to me." I harshly pressed my lips to his, feeling him kiss me back. He flipped us over so he was on top. We frantically unbuttoned each other's jeans and ripped them off. He broke the kiss and looked horrified. "Oh, Eren." His voice continued to shake as he lifted me up onto his lap and held me close. "I'm so sorry."

"What's happening?" I was beyond confused, clearly from not being in the proper state of mind.

"This." He pointed back and forth between us. "Eren, you're with Levi. You belong with him. I know I got in your fucking head. This is my fault."

Oh my god...

Levi...

"Jean, it's okay." I quickly said, trying to avoid more emotions welling up.

"It's not fucking okay, Eren!" I shouted. I got off his lap and slid to the back of the bed as he got off and started pacing. "It's not."

"Jean, I-"

"Do you have any idea how fucking hard it is to control myself around you?" I really didn't know where he was going with this.

"What do you m-"

"I know you're not an idiot, Eren. If I had it my way, it would be me with you. Not Levi. I love you." He seemed completely ashamed.

"H-how long?" Was all I managed to get out.

"Freshman year." He sighed, unable to even look at me. I felt my stomach turn and immediately ran to the bathroom connected to the room. I got most of my vomit in the toilet so that's a plus. Jean just stood in the doorway and stared.

"Now would be a good time to show that love now don't you think?" I groaned, resting my head on the cold toilet seat. He came behind me and started to rub my back.

"I'm sorry."

"Me too, Jean. Me fucking too."