Complications Throughout Generations

Chapter 102

Eren's POV:

I couldn't sleep. I was too afraid Levi was going to wake up from a nightmare. You can't really tell when he's sleeping either. He says I talk in my sleep and snore sometimes. But he never makes a sound. You'd think he wasn't even breathing. That's how quiet he is.

"Levi," I whispered and kissed his ear, "you awake?"

"Yeah," he whispered back.

"Turn around." Something that helped him sleep was having his head against my chest. Him hearing my heartbeat let him know I was alive. When his back was against my chest, that was the position we'd lay in when he needed to feel safe. I picked up on all these things fairly quickly. Levi is a very complex person in ways that don't need to be spoken. If you don't pay attention, you might miss it. He got comfortable with his head on my chest and my arms wrapped around him.

"Did you break up with Mikasa?"

"Yeah."

"Is your plan to date Jean now?"

"No."

He didn't say anything afterward. I just continued to keep him close. Letting him know that he was safe with me. I knew how reckless I was being these past few months. That was bound to happen since I've been an idiot at birth. But it was now that I realized just how bad it actually was. I've been a selfish brat who only thinks with half a brain and his dick. It seemed as though I forgot the feeling of Levi in my arms. Never again. I'm never leaving ever again. I was so overwhelmed with all of these that I silently started to cry to myself. I bit my lip as hard as I could, trying to stop the tears. I just hurt everyone. Especially the people I love most. Why do I do this?

"Eren, are you okay? You're shaking." Levi sat up and went to turn on the light.

"Don't turn the light on." I sat up with my back against the headboard. He sat on my thighs, similar to how we were in Annie's house.

"What's wrong?" Even though we could barely make out each other's faces, he still managed to wipe away my tears. He quickly went against my wishes and turned the light on. He had finally gotten a good look at me. I had dry blood in my nose, my lips were chapped, my eyes were bloodshot with tears falling, and my hair was a mess. I looked disgusting. He's seen me at way worse but he probably doesn't remember. In fact, he's been the cause of me looking like that in the past. "Eren," he moved the hair out of my eye and placed the palm of his hand on my cheek.

"I'm so sorry." He didn't answer only because we both knew I didn't deserve his forgiveness. "This is all my fault." Levi would typically have something snarky to say but he knew I was genuine. "I just keep fucking up and making everything worse. The worst part, it all falls on you every time. I don't wanna hurt you anymore."

"Then don't." He seemed stern. He might've cried out all of his tears.

"I'm sorry, Levi." He reached over to his nightstand and pulled out a couple tissues. He covered my nose.

"Blow." He rolled his eyes as I got bloody snot all on the inside. "You're disgusting."

"Well I could've blown my own nose." Levi had a thing where he liked when I touched his waist at all times in bed. He dropped the tissues in his small, black garbage can and pumped some Purell hand sanitizer in his hand and rubbed them together. "I don't like it when you're the one taking care of me." I sighed. My crying had ceased thankfully. I was too focused on the fact that I had just gotten my nose blown by Mr. Clean.

"Thought you were used to it."

"Used to it?" That earned a small smile.

"Honestly, I just assumed I was the one taking care of your dumb ass all the time back then."

"Oh really?"

I don't think there was really ever a time where we took care of each other. I wouldn't say when I was a ghost really counts either. He was always stone cold and I was always reckless. There wasn't much to take care of.

I pulled him closer on my lap and pressed my forehead against his.

"Everyone just likes to beat the shit out of you, don't they."

"I think you enjoyed it the most."

"I definitely got some pleasure out of it."

"Trust me," I kissed his cheek, "I know. I'm shocked you never broke one of my ribs."

He wrapped his arms around my neck and stared deeply into my eyes. He was just as beautiful as ever.

"Do me a favor." I nodded. "Stop being a brat." He pushed his lips on mine with his hands on the sides of my face as I kept my hands on his waist. I had never felt so desperate to be by his side in this lifetime.

"Levi, I love you so much."

"I love you too, Eren."

His eyes shot wide open and then laid down on my legs.

"What?"

"That's it. That's all we had to fucking do the entire time."

I knew exactly what he meant.

"Welcome back, Captain." I laughed and he shot his body back up and kissed me with every ounce of passion and desperation he had.

"Shut up, brat."

I missed you so much.