Don't Tell

What he did prt. 2

Jess's pov.....

It's hard telling someone something that could ruin their image of you. Adam knows me as the girl that doesn't give a fuck and doesn't care about consequences. I wasn't that girl that night.

Adam still holds my gaze and my waist. His eyes focus on me and for the first time, it doesn't feel like it's a gaze of hate. His eyes aren't dark anymore, they are light and the deeper I look... I can see the care in them. Or, that's what I want to see.

"It was supposed to be a sleepover for me and Austin." I say and Adam's jaw tightens and his grip on my waist becomes tighter. Not tight enough to hurt me but tight enough to get me through the memory.

"We had a bad argument the week before and being the best friends we are, decided we could just fuck each other to make it up." I say and I give a false cheer. Adam gives me another kiss on my neck and I shiver at his touch. Why is he so obsessed with my neck today?

"We actually had to plan this because we were only 15 at the time. His dad didn't mind helping me sneak out. I should have known the signs... He was more touchy with me than usual." I say and that feeling of stupidity and shame washes over me. Adam nods, he's quiet and his focus is on nothing but me. I gulp and continue.

"When we got there, he was making Austin do the most. Like, he would tell him to go fetch something outside and it was actually in the house and he told Austin to make sure he doubled the cleaning in the room." Adam's hand rubs circles on my back and it calmed me.

"He was doing that so he could get close while Austin was away. He offered me some beer and you would think an adult... No, a fucking cop wouldn't supply a child with beer." I spit the last part. I wasn't smart, I was naive and troubled... Looking for whatever to fill something inside me.

Now that I think of it. I should have known that there were cops out there that didn't do the right things. Why was I so shocked about the cop that worked with Wayne? Maybe it was just odd because he was on duty. I noticed my pause and I blinked twice before continuing.

"Finally, Austin was able to shoo him off and take me to his room. We smoked, made out, and had some drinks that his dad gave us." I say and I lean myself more into Adam. His body is so warm and he smells so good.

"Well, long story short... We were in the middle of.... Fucking and his dad had barged into the room. We were both shocked and I of course pushed myself off of him and covered myself." The memory plays in my mind as I tell what happened.

"He started unbuckling his pants and he made sure he was looking at us the entire time. He even had the audacity to lay beside us and none of us said anything... We were just... Frozen." My pitch got higher thinking of the nerve of that man. I shudder at the memory of it all.

"He told us that he wanted us to do him a favor. If we did it, he wouldn't tell Chris what I was doing and he wouldn't beat Austin in front of me. All he wanted was for us to continue..... To do the deed in front of him." As the words leave my mouth, I feel Adam's body tense.

"He filmed me and Austin fucking each other while he masturbated. He made us watch him come, he made us watch the video and told us ways we could make him explode.... He made us know that he had a thing for watching us and he keeps that video with him." I say and Adam is quiet for a moment.

"He adores me though, after I had left.... Austin sent me many messages to tell me that his dad wanted to apologize and make it all up for me. He told me that his dad just misses his mom and I was the closest thing to her." I remember Austin's text... I remember being confused because I never got to meet his mom. Yet, I was the closest thing to her.