WhiteGXRoblox's Slice of Journal 2

3-4 July 2024 - Ambitious Reminder?

3 July

This morning, My family except my younger brother (which we pick them up later) try out and eat in new cafe that us somewhere in street of our hometown.

My dad still insists to correct my old habit. First is Pick something worth to eat and stop picking out the cheap meals which is fine but second one I should be mine is not minding others and intrude conversations. Anyway, Since I recently just did Color Study with designs I color picked from surrounding color design of cafe and uses "Analogous". Dad suddenly talk about home interior design in terms of color he can rely on me since I am studying and learning in this too but I gotta learn to respect other point of view too.

Likewise, Nephew came to house under my mom's care again. Younger brother night jog with members. Mom continue to cook delicious meal that I wont be able to pay back.

4 July

Feels like I want to do something meaningful again. But out of guilt, not with ambition in mind.Think, that describes my feelings today. Knowing that my ambition or dream keeps fainting. I dont know what to say, back then I'd love to be IT or Computer Science person since I am familiar and interested in it. But that ambition is not so strong now.

I remembered back then dreamed of making my own romance story using ROBLOX or something else. Something romance related, after watching many Romance films & anime I dreamt of making one myself but this is more distant and losing the grasp of it. Is it bad? Or I should aim for something different and better which what I want?

Should I discuss this my family? Even then, I wanted to discuss if I ever wanted to fall in love with someone I like, apparently I subconsciously have a crush on one of my classmate or someone I know in KL but of course I'd keep their relationship and situation in mind so I wouldn't be weird or affect others. But isn't falling in love as young age isn't beautiful? Me, Who is 21 years old, finally caring out own appeal to others?

I will think more about it another time, for now. Prepare to go bowling with my parents and younger brother.For some reason, the bond increase between me and my younger brother, not much for my parents. Why am I describing like stats from video games?

We didn't manage to go bowling today, when the family got there. The bowling station is being occupied and closed for competition. Unsure if we can play it tomorrow we return for now and dad plan to watch movies together at Night. At car we talk about dream car after witnessing a Suzuki Jimny on road with exquisite license plate.

Conversation I heard with my brother. the words is that: "If dad actually got money, he can afford Old 911 porsche model to drive for fun." Then Panemera is mentioned. A 4 door Porsche.

8pm, Movie with dad & younger brother. Yes, After years "Inside Out 2" by Disney is out. It's most anticipated show for me since kid age. That they actually release second films of it. Well, it's not much. Dad can say I pay attention to insightful details in the show. But at the same time I should keep my habit or speaking ears to ears with my family member where watching should be quiet and no disturbance. Anyhow, It's good. My brother enjoyed it too. But my dad catches very quick with meaning and moral of the story. Thanks dad.

Oh right, We rescheudled bowling session for another day and uhh. My brother asked to check on NFS Heat progress again. I have longed uninstall but the progress is cloud saved and still there on PC Steam platform. Gotta reinstall for him to play it like before. Ever since I moved to city to study in college. he didn't touch much of PC games, although he have access with mom's basic office laptop but doubt he can play smoothly so he didn't.