The Secrets I Keep (Ominis Gaunt X Fem MC)

Lucy

Never had I told anyone about my early life in the orphanage, if anyone knew... I feared I'd lose them forever. The only ones that knew were my adopted parents and most of the Weasley family.

I thought I could handle the boggart, but I was very wrong, no matter what I did... I will never be able to escape my past. Sebastian is now here and he holds a genuine look in his eyes; maybe I could trust him. I took a deep breath... No going back now.

"I lived in Fitzroy's orphanage since I was an infant. You could say that despite some living conditions and low amounts of food, I had a happy childhood..." my head leaned towards the cold floor as I began to dig my foot into the ground. My eyes then returned to his soft gaze.

"One day I saved a girl from bullies because of her different colored eyes, one blue and one brown. Her name was Lucy and we became the best of friends. In fact we made a vow to become sisters and never get separated if we were to get adopted. However if we weren't, then live the best life you can..."

I took out my handkerchief and wiped my eyes.
"Just after my sixth birthday I would sneak out and sell fresh, but thrown away newspapers. I sold them until I saved enough money for some cakes. It wasn't much and the cakes were small. Just enough for two people. I wanted to give Lucy a proper birthday party."

My hands trembled as I fidgeted nervously with the handkerchief. My hands began to freeze but then I felt the warmth of Sebastian's hands above mine. I looked over to him and continued.
"We had a place in the back of the building by an old garden shed, and after breakfast I took her there to surprise her and she loved it. We played with our dolls grabbed our water cups and pretended it was tea as we ate our small cakes... Then..."

I could feel my throat wanting me to stop talking.
"Then these older boys, found us and ruined her party. They smashed the cakes on the old wooden floor and smeared the frosting on our face. One of them pushed Lucy to the ground when she protested, and I tried to fight back even though they were stronger than me. However something inside me snapped; I was angry with them and what they did to us on our special day"

I couldn't look at Sebastian for what I was about to reveal and my eyes began to water even more until I felt the cold tear fall down my cheek.

"It all happened so fast. One moment the boys were there and the next they were flying back from a gust of strong wind while I remained in tact. I remember hearing the sounds of crashing and followed by painful yells and groans.

They were severely injured. Some of them lying unconscious on the ground. Others were bleeding from head injuries. When I finally saw Lucy...." My heart fell to the pit of my stomach as my whole body began to tremble. My hand went to hold my mouth momentarily before I covered my face entirely trying to suppress my cries.

"She had hit the wall of the shed and a beam of wood had gone through her body. She was barely breathing" my voice cracked as I began to cry. "I had to hold her as I begged and pleaded for her not to leave me. I apologized over and over again. I told her how much I loved her." I removed my hands from my face as I gripped onto the hem of the skirt tightly. "Her last words to me were 'I love you sister' and then her body fell limply in my arms. I cried so loudly that the whole orphanage heard my pleas." I could feel Sebastian hesitate a moment before his hand began to rub circles on my back.

"I had to be torn away from Lucy because I refused to leave her side. I couldn't and I wouldn't" I paused a moment. I hated remembering Lucy that way. I hated imagining her last lived moments on this world that way.

I enjoyed remembering the life she had even if it wasn't the best. She always had a smile on her face and always showed so much optimism. Sebastian had already pulled be to his side. His arm holding me strongly as he laid it over my shoulders. He didn't say a word not a single word until I finally was able to stop the trembling and my cries.

As I sniffled I peeled off of him. I was ready to continue my story as I wiped my tears stained face. "The next day one of the surviving boys had woken up and told the Headmistress everything that had occurred. She dragged me to her office and had other staff members pin me to the floor. She said she knew there was something strange about me and called me a witch and no policeman would ever believe her. So she would pass judgment herself" I placed my hand flatly against my side.

"She burned me with a hot iron. I was kept in the attic after that's. Every time something happened they would lash me as punishment and claim it was witchcraft. Two years later my parents found out about me and adopted me. They obliviated the orphanage to forget I ever existed. They helped me heal in many ways. I also met the Weasleys and they were very kind." My hands went to grab Sebastian's gently.

"I killed people. I killed my best friend and I can never take that back, yet here I am selfishly taking everyone's kindness. If you are a monster Sebastian then so am I" I whispered.

After that Sebastian told me about his sister and his uncle. How much it hurt him and how he is shocked Penelope still stayed his friend after all of it. After how much he hurt her, after all the trouble he caused her. Not to mention letting her witness him murdering his uncle right in front of her eyes.

We stayed together until the sun went down. We both understood each other. Both understood what it felt like to feel like you don't deserve another chance. Sebastian told me before we head home for Christmas he'd introduce me to his sister.

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Chapter written by my co-writer Paige 💛 hope you guys enjoy it. Also hope you enjoy the new cover created by my amazing friend Rina 🥰