Rain ~ h.s. (au)

Chapter 91

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this chapter has a lot to do with everything that was happening in the story and you'll realize everything bad that happened in Harry's and Christine's lives had something to do with Justin even though he didn't know Christine or hated Harry...

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Dear Christine,

I know how you feel right now. I know you're in shock. I know you're full of hatred towards me. And, let me tell you, you have every right to feel like that. I've always known you are a special person and just seeing how protective Harry is over you, that just confirmed my assumptions.

I don't want to justify my actions and what I have done. You know I was planning on getting a revenge. You knew there was nothing that could possibly make me change my mind, not even your blue eyes.

The truth is, I lied to you. About everything. On your surprise, I believe in afterlife and I want to enjoy it so, here I am, putting all my lies and crimes on this paper for you to read it. I believe I owe you many, many explanations and many, many answers. When you finish reading this, just know that I'm not expecting you to even try to understand me, but I hope someday, you will forgive me.

Years and years ago, there was a new boy who came with other boys on my party, uninvited. He looked innocent and unexperienced, just like everybody I'd take in my "gang". I didn't pay that much attention to him as I did next week, when he was sitting on the grass in front of the house with a bottle in his hand. I knew he did something wrong and I know he was regretting something. He was ashamed and when I asked him about it, he said he cheated on his girlfriend. 

Also, that is my fault. I wanted to mess with him so I put something into his cup and when we were playing truth or dare, I told him to go in a room with this girl I don't even remmeber. 

I wanted to laugh at that at first because it's a normal thing for a guy to cheat on his girlfriend. He was so devastated. And I knew it, deep inside that broken guys like him make perfect criminals. I lied to him and told him I've been through the same. When I offered him to join us, it didn't took him long to say yes. 

He was only seventeen, he didn't even know what life is like. But, it was normal to me because I was in that kind of business since I was his age. I'd take him to clubs, get him drunk and show him how to party and be a part of high society. He learned quickly and soon became my right hand. I trusted him with my life. 

I grew up with an abusive father; he wasn't just abusing me, but my mother also. So, I left home in the age of 17 and got into this business. Four years later, they told me my mother died. They said she fell down the stairs. I knew they were lying and I knew the real truth. Try to guess it. The same day I went to my father's house and killed him. I took his body into the woods and buried it there. I did killed some other people in robberies and soon killing people became something so natural like waking up in the morning. 

I've always told Harry the price of being in my group. Once your in, there's no way out. As much as I believed Harry, I could never be sure he wouldn't get scared and run his mouth to the police. I had to make sure he was on our side. So, I made him kill. I took a random girl that worked at my bar and made him kill her. He refused to, but I threatened him. And then he did it.

Soon after, Harry wanted out which make me go mad and we started fighting. He hit me in my nose and then left. I had to revenge that moment and bring my dignity back. I ordered some guys to beat his sister. After that, he came back and apologized. I did took him back and I was then so sure he will always be my side. That was, of course, until police came after me and put me into jail. Because of him.