Rain ~ h.s. (au)

Chapter 94

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Harry's POV

"This tastes like shit." Niall exclaims as he eats the food we got here at the motel. I admit it does taste like fucking shit, but it's the best we can have and I'm not planning on leaving this area and throwing my three days with Chris in the air. Christine chuckles and continues to eat her food. I mean, this fuck isn't food, but we'll survive.

"Are you planning on escaping?" Louis asks and I pretend I don't hear him and continue with eating this shit. Honestly, I've been thinking about escaping, but what's the point? Justin's people are behind my back and if I make one wrong move like running away, I know they will fucking catch me and then I'll be fucking screwed. As much as I want to jump on a plane and fly away, it's fucking impossible. 

I feel all of them staring me and I look at Christine who's already looking at me with those blue eyes as they beg me to say something. Fuck, "No." I reply and I hear Niall clear his throat. I've told them about the letter and they agree with me that this is a fucked up situation and it seems too fake like a fucking movie. 

A few hours before I had an argument with Christine about this. She wants to run away, but I can't let that happen. As much as I want to, I can't. All my life I've been too fucking selfish, and now when I'm falling down, I don't want to drag her down with me. I love her, I fucking do, and as much as something inside of me screams for me to take her hand and leave this fucking town, I can't. I'd become a fugitive and she'd be treated as a participant of the crime I've made. Her whole future would be fucked up and I can't, I just can't have that on my soul. 

"There must be something we can do," Liam says as he places his plate on the bed next to his leg, "We can't let fucking Justin control us for God's sake. He's dead." he states and as much as I want to shove those words up his ass, he has a point. 

But, they don't understand anything. This jail, as bad as it sounds, it's my only way of escaping this misery and save everybody from suffering because of my mistakes and because of me. By going to jail I might save them from myself. I've already destroyed them. My eyes scan across the room, seeing four pair of eyes staring at me, waiting for a response and believing in me even though they all know I'll let them down. None of them should even be here.

Christine should be with some nice guy, not Luke though because he's a fucking bastard. She should be with someone who'd love her with all he has and someone who will never hurt her, no matter what she does. She needs someone who will make her happy, the happier she has ever felt. And sadly, I'm not that person. Her life with me would consist of this; hiding in motels and running away from the police and I do not want that for her.

And these boys should be at their homes, enjoying in their lives and not be sitting here and eating this shitty ass food in a poor motel. 

"I know, but that will not change my decision." I state, my eyes focused on Christine who's playing with her fingers and with her eyes glued to her lap. I know she's not okay with this, but I'm doing this for her. Why can't she see that? I want her to be happy.

Liam sighs and takes the bottle of water before he takes a sip of it while Niall and Louis share a few glances here and there, probably pissed with my decision, too. Liam smiles at Christine and offers her water, but she politely declines with a smile on her face. She's fucking gorgeous.