Rain ~ h.s. (au)

Chapter 70

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Christine's POV

Remember when you were a kid and how much you wanted to grow up, be an adult? Remember when you used to believe in happily ever after? Yeah, those were the days. When we dreamed about meeting this one person, one person that will fall over their heels for us? Person that will love us and we'll love them? Well, sure that is true. Everybody meets that someone once in their life. Everybody falls in love and everybody is loved by someone. 

But, love is a complicated thing. Sometimes it can be our lifesaver and sometimes, it can be like a demon that keeps on pulling us under and deeper into the water. But, you hold on. Yes, it hurts holding on to that something, or someone, but you believe. You have faith. And because of that little faith you still have, you fight and you're patient. But, sometimes you hold on for too long and then you drown. Or, one day you just break down. You fail and you're devastated and pulled back under the water. And, when you lose faith, you let it go. 

And then you realize, you could've let go from the start you were pulled under. But, you were afraid it'll hurt. You didn't know what to do without that person. You thought, what will I do without him or how will I survive without him? 

Letting someone go, especially the person you love, is the hardest thing to do. Am I ready to let him go? No. I'm not ready. I still believe I can help him and I still believe everything will be over. Yes, I might be a fool, but I don't care. Because when I think of letting him go, giving up, I remember all of the times he made me happy. I remember all the good memories and then I think, hey, maybe it'll be again like this. And I'm pulled back under.

Yes, Harry is an idiot, and yes, I'm so done with his secrets. But, I love him. And these three words win every battle. These three words make me stay. And I know he loves me. Yes, I know I should leave and I know I shouldn't let him keep secrets. But, dammit, I love him.

It's been four days. Four. It's New Year's Eve. And what am I doing? Watching Dirty Dancing and eating pizza. I haven't heard of him in four days. I call him, he never answers. I text him, he never replies. Thinking about that, makes me feel so stupid. It's New Year's Eve and I should be partying and I should be having fun, but no. I'm sitting on the couch, waiting for him to come. How foolish is that?

I went alone on Susan's party. I hoped he'd show up and everything, but he didn't. Even Eleanor was there and I asked her if she's heard from him and she didn't. I was forcing my smile the whole evening and I was a mess and I didn't even get some sleep. But, guess where he was?

With his friends on a party. I was barely holding myself from trying not to cry and call the police to find him and he was at a party? I was glad he was safe and with his friends, but I was, and still am, pissed of that he was on a party while I was worried sick. And the way I found out about that is even more frustrating. 

+Flashback+

"Why isn't he coming?" Sus asked me for probably the fifth time since I came here. I sighed and took another sip of my water. I chose to stay sober today. 

"Something came up, nothing serious." I lied, but honestly, I didn't want to bother her with my problems on her birthday.

"Are you sure?" she asked and I nodded with my head. She smiled and headed to the kitchen. I walked into the living room and cursed under my breath when I saw who was sitting on the couch.