I gasped for air as I sat up.
"Ma, relax." Jahseh reached out for me.
I smacked his hand. "DON'T FUCKING TOUCH ME YOU STUPID ASS BITCH.
PINCHÉ PENDEJO! COMO! COMO ME VAS A HACER ESTO! NO TE VALGO VERGA, EH? AY TE QUIERO DAR UN VERGARZO MUY FUERTE POR QUE NO VALES VERGA. I WANNA SPAZZ ON YOUR ASS, BRUH. I STAYED WITH YOU THROUGH THICK AND THIN! WHY JAHSEH!"
He looked at the ground in disappointment. "I'll explain, but right now I need to make sure you're okay."
"FUCK THAT SHIT! HIJO DE TU PUTA MADRE, ERES UNA MIERDA! YOU SO MAD GREEN BRUH. I WASTED MY LIFE ON YO BITCH ASS! TE ODIO!"
He looked at my heart monitor, which was going crazy from how angry I was.
I looked around and grabbed the nurse button.
"Kila stop!"
I pressed the button. "Come get this man out of my room now! Please!"
"No!" He yanked that shit out of my hand. "Ma, please, just calm down! You're go-"
I swung and hit him on the side of his head. "GET THE FUCK OOOUUTTT!!!!!!"
He held his head. "CHILL THE FUCK OUT, BRUH. DON'T BE PUTTING NO FUCKING HANDS ON ME." His eyes darkened.
"X! I fucking hate you! We're done! Take your fucking ring! I'm not marrying you! I fucking hate you and anything i felt for you! I thought you would change!"
"I was being a dick! I'm not like that! That picture is old! I'm not who i was!"
"You fucked her in our bed, X! I don't care if it was you or Jahseh! I don't care how long it was. I should've left you from the jump! I can't do this. That picture was taken days after you promised me you wouldn't do that anymore."
"I promised you I would never hurt you like that any more and I'm sticking to the promise! Kila, I'm not like that anymore!" X defended.
I sat up in the hospital bed and felt my head. "What the fuck happened to me!?"
"You fell down the stairs. Kat found you. Don't freak out on me, the baby's okay."
I laid my hand on my stomach. "I didn't fall down the stairs! Geneva was in there! She hit me! She probably gave you and Jamal some fucking sleeping pill, you wouldn't wake up!"
He shook his head. "What're you talking about?" His eyes flashed back.
"She knew about the pictures! She confronted me. She told me to break your heart so she could have it. ITS HER FUCKING NUMBER. Give my phone to the police! They'll track her!"
He nodded. "I'll do that later. Just calm down."
"Jahseh, I don't want you here right now."
He stared at me. "Was you really bouta get Jamal to leave me?"
I nodded quickly. "Yes, yes I was. I was bouta zip out this town. Cause my son shouldn't grow up knowing his DADDY be a lying ass bitch!"
"I can't believe you."
"I CANT BELIEVE YOU!"
"We not breaking up. We still engaged and you still love me."
"Of course i still love you! I wasn't leaving you because I didn't love you. I was leaving because you hurt me too many fucking times. And yes we're breaking up."
He shook his head. "No. You gon have to kill me to break up with me. Fuck the fame. I'll kidnap yo ass."
"I don't care what you say. Once I get home, im getting my shit and leaving. AND Jamal's coming with me."
"No the fuck hes not! And you not going no where. Stop fighting me."
I rolled my eyes. "I'm done talking to you."
....
"Jahseh, let her go!" Cleo shouted.
I pushed back against him as I tried to get to the closet to pack my clothes.
"No!" He argued. He grabbed my face, forcing me to look at him. "Mama, please don't leave me. I swear, im not messing with anybody. I-I did that a long time ago. I hurt you, I promise you it will never happen again."
Cleo came up to us and tried to pull Jahseh away from me. "Kila, take all the time you need to get better, but you'll come back right?" She sniffled. "Hes my grandson."
"Of course, Cleo. I'm not hiding Jamal from you guys. I just need a break." I looked at Jahseh. "Jah, I love you, but this is for the better. I'll go and think. I just need that. You can tell your fans I went to go see a family member out of state. I'm not gonna be on my phone at all."
"I'm trying to convince myself that this is good for you, but I fucking can't, bruh! You can't do this to me. Don't leave me, Kila."
"If I'm gone, you'll realize how it'll be if you keep playing these games."
"But that picture was a long time ago! I haven't done that shit. I've been faithful. Kila, please."
I heard Jamal cry from his crib as he woke up.
Cleo ran to him.
I looked Jahseh in his eyes. "Tell me the truth before I find out some other way. Just let that shit out because if I come back amd decide to stay with you and find out you were messing with some bitch because I'll leave for good."
He sighed. "A month ago.."
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. "A month ago, you were on house arrest. So you brought that bitch into our home with our son in the house?"
He nodded. "It didn't mean anything."
"I don't care, Jahseh. I seriously don't give a fuck anymore. I won't cry over you because I knew you were a stupid ass waste of my fucking time. Just think about your shit bruh. A month ago, you were planning on proposing, but you were still fucking bitches."
He shook his head. "Its not like that!"
"Then how is it, Jah!? Was your dick in a bitch that wasn't me?!"
He groaned and covered his face.
"Was it!?"
"Yes."
"Did she make you cum!?"
"Yes."
"Then its exactly what the fuck I thought. Think about your shit. I'm done doing all the work while I carry the relationship on my back. I can't believe I dated someone who literally can't keep his dick in his pants."
"I promise, I won't do it anymore!"
"BITCH you weren't supposed to do it at all! Period! I'm done with you, Jahseh. I said what I said to keep your mom calm because unlike you, that woman cares about feelings and how it affects others." I took off my ring and threw it on the bed. "Take your shit." I took off my 'X' necklace. "Imma pack my shit, imma leave. You can always see Jamal, and you can always see Keva, but you and I are done, Jahseh. I want nothing more with you. If people ask what happened to our wedding, just tell them we were never engaged. They just assumed."
"Why are you doing this to me."
"You're not the victim." I said. I threw my clothes into my luggage and stuffed my phone into my pocket after I sent kat a text.
"Why are you leaving me! I did some stupid shit. I won't do it again."
I groaned in frustration. "Are you stupid, Jahseh? ARE YOU?? Qué? Tú no piensas ó qué? Eres todo acerca de la positividad pero aún tienes problemas por tu cuenta. Arregla esa mierda y luego ven a hablar conmigo! Til then, choke on your air!"
"We not breaking up."
"Yes we are. Matter a fact, im single right now. And so are you. You're free to fuck all the dirty bitches you want." I laughed. "And you were so good at hiding it. I really didn't notice that you were cheating on me. I guess I'm the stupid one."
"I'm sorry."
I shook my head. "You're not sorry for cheating. You're sorry you got caught."
So hows quarantine so far?
