Distant

Distant: Chapter 80

Tara walks off and I head to a parking lot. I see Molly storm pass me. "Ho." She mutters as she says passing me. I don't even have enough energy to respond or even get mad. Maybe she's right. I ruin everything I lay eyes on. I ruined everything with my stupid ass heart. I should have just said I loved Andrew more. Why couldn't I just do that. God I hate myself. She's right I'm just a dumb ho. I feel a sob escape my body as I get to the parking lot. I push the sob down, before it escapes. Then I hear my phone ring.  It's a random number, but for some reason I decide to answer. "Hello?" I barely let out. "Is this Adalyn?" A female voice says though the phone. "Yeah." I respond. "Your Andrews emergency contact. He is currently in the emergency room in Kaiser hospital on Sunset Boulevard, LA California." The lady says.  I don't even let her finish saying anything else. "I'm on my way." I say before hanging up. I look up and see Colby walking to his Car. I run over to him. "Colby please you have to take me to Kaiser on Sunset." I cry out. Colby doesn't even question me he just unlocks the door and we get in. He drives to the hospital and a million thoughts run through my head. "What's going on?" He asks. I can't even make the words to answer. Sobs just come out instead. "Addy please you have to tell me something." He says worried. "Andrew's in the hospital." I whisper out. I pull out my phone and send Tara a quick text. Tears fall on my screen and I'm sure it's probably like gibberish, but I know she'll get it. Colby pulls into a parking spit in front of the car. I unbuckle myself and jump out the car before Colby even fully parks it. I close the door and run to the front desk. Colby puts the car in park and comes out only seconds behind me. "Where's Andrew? I'm Adalyn." I rush out the words in tears. "Oh yes, your his emergency contact. Please fill this out first." The lady hands me a after papers, a pen and a clipboard. Your fucking me. I go and sit down. I'll fill it out Colby says sitting next to me. I just hand him the papers. I'm still mad at him, but I know I can't get a damn thing done through these teats. I can't even focus. A million thoughts go through my head as Colby does the paper work. "I think about all the possibilities of what's going on right now. I think about memories we had. I think about how I'm his emergency contact. Colby gets up to turn in the papers, but I just continue sitting there thinking. Colby sits back next to me and I think about how the last thing that happened between us was a fight. I didn't even get to express how important he was to me. Someone comes out and calls my name. "Yes?" I jump up. "Can I talk to you." I walk over to the doctor in worry. "I'm so sorry. The crash was really bad. It seems he wasn't paying attention and crashed into someone else. The guy he crashed into is completely fine, but andrew on the other hand. Well they crashed into the driver side and he has passed away. He lost to much blood." The doctor says. I hear the doctors words and I almost feel my soul leave my body as I drop to the floor in tears. Everything becomes a blur as sobs leave my body. Oh my god. This is my fault. Maybe he couldn't see from the tears. I distracted him. He was always there for me and now he died because of me. I let sob after sob, feeling a piece of my heart leave with each one. "I'm so sorry. Here." The doctor says picking me up and leading me to a room.  "You can stay here this is my office." He says sitting me down in a seat and closing the door on his way out. I sob aloud. My voice is scratchy and my head and heart feel empty. A few moments later the door opens and I assume it's the doctor so I look up in hope of good news. I just see Colby come in and close the door behind him and my heart breaks once again. "Adalyn. I'm so sorry." He says placing his hand on mine. I snatch my hand away. "This is all my fault." I cry. "No it's not." He says sympathetically. "Why'd you have to go after me?" I ask.