A Dream Life With You

Chapter 107: To Define Themselves.

They both lay on the bed in each other's arms snuggling closely. Both felt a little tired. They talked a little about this and that. About their works and future plans. One topic led to another and Victoria recalled the phase when she thought she was into girls and smiled helplessly.

" It's very embarrassing but at that time, I really thought I was into girls. As you know, I care about them a lot and feel very empathetic towards them. With everything going on and meeting the only bad guys left me with an impression that I absolutely hate guys and like women. But then I was confused and left the topic untouched. When I met you and finally realised my feelings, I got it all clear."

Recalling something, Victoria's gaze deepened as she spoke.

" You know Oscar, I have realised something in m line of work. There ain't any humans who are born gay or lesbians. Everyone is normal naturally. You know what changes them, it's the people around them. Their past experience, their present experiences, and most importantly, their traumatic experiences. Whichever things or incidents that left a deep impression in their heart defines them and somehow had a hand in them becoming what they are today.

After recovery, I've seen many victims give up on people. They never got close to others and shut themselves up. But I've also seen some who started hating men from the core of their hearts yet they still respect women and a lot of them have ended up turning into lesbians. Before that incident, they were perfectly normal. They had a normal family with ups and downs. Fights and make-ups.

But after that it was like everything that defined them was forgotten and changed by their latest experience which they obviously never wanted. And not only in this way but as a poor student, an easy-going person who doesn't take life seriously, those who used to play around all the time and had no restrictions at all in their lives, I also witnessed firsthand how they turned out to be a powerful person, a hard-working person and a suddenly successful person in their lives.

For some people, these experiences worked for the better but for most for the worse. But the thing is neither wanted it to happen. No matter how successful they might become if they could go in the past, these people won't hesitate to save themselves because they died inside. When the things that defined you and your whole character turned into dust, what remains is nothing but an empty shell. To fill that empty shell, to define themselves once again, they meet someone else or find themselves by the way they continue to live their lives.

After experiencing this and realising this all, I feel really bad for them. If people from perfectly normal family turns into gay or something, their families inevitably had a little hand in that but yet when they come out, they are treated so harshly.

To be honest, I don't like this thing about liking the same gender but that doesn't mean I have any right to say that they are good or bad. At least I am okay with it as long as they are not like being too intimate in front of me. It's not just about them I don't like anyone being too open in public.

This is my point of view of them. Do you think I am right?" 

" I agree with you. Actually, I am a very cold-hearted person. I don't feel anything for others. Therefore, I never put my attention to any topics. I never thought about this at all. Even the case with that shit! I only put attention on him because I was afraid you would get involved. Otherwise, I wouldn't pay attention to it. 

But of course, as the Ceo of the Lazlo Corporation, I keep myself updated on things properly but those things never affected me personally. Before you came, I loved and cared about my parents. But after you came into my life, I felt like I am a totally different person. My life was so dense that nothing excites me. I was so bored with everything that I literally didn't care about myself. I even thought that if I suddenly died in an accident, it wouldn't be a tragedy for me but since you've entered my life, things changed so much.

Now, I care about your family too and love you more than I can understand. I actually dream to have a beautiful future with you. I was a person who only lived in present but now I am thinking and dreaming about our future which I thought was very foolish before. I started loving my life Victoria. Ever since I fell in love with you, I feel like everything around me has become meaningful... "

Victoria smiled. He wasn't really a cheesy person but sometimes his words just do magic to her heart. And she knows that it is because he speaks from his heart.

" Unlike you, I once used to live a happy life. Having fun with friends, going out with family, joking around, taking things easy and living in a beautiful shell of my parents. I was unaware of the cruelty of the world. I haven't seen the world. But then I suddenly saw a glimpse of it and without thinking about it anymore, stepped into all of it. 

When that happened, my soul died. I stopped smiling, stopped having a favourite food, stopped playing games and I even started talking less and less. Every day, I was dying little by little. I lost myself. I lost my identity, my character and my whole self and just become someone who resolves things. 

That was a really dark part of my life but don't take me wrong, I have never regretted that time. I never thought I made a wrong decision rather it was the best decision of my life. It made me strong and capable. And most importantly, it gave me the power to save and protect others which is a very precious yet rare gift that not everyone is blessed to have. 

And then, when you entered my life, my lost soul, my lost character they all come back. I could finally define myself again. For the first time, I learned the true meaning of love. And believe me, Oscar, I love you more than I could define love... "