A Dream Life With You

Chapter 142: Promise You As A Mother

The time froze in a stalemate. No one talked and a strange melancholy silence occurred. Oscar stood with his back facing Victoria. His red teary eyes were devasted and troubled. He clenched his hands tightly in distress. He had no courage to face Victoria at all. 

He was really afraid to face her. For the first time, he wanted to run away from her. He dare not look her in the eyes. He wanted to avoid her. He needed to sort himself out for her. He was not ready yet to face her. There was suddenly a large wall separating him from her. And even if he wants to, he seems unable to make that wall breakdown. 

He wanted to turn around as he couldn't bear to hurt her. But his body seemed to have a mind of its own and wasn't listening to him at all. He couldn't turn around. He stood there stiffly without uttering a sound. It was so silent that it was beginning to get scary.

As Victoria looked at his back, tears continued to stream out of her red eyes. She didn't know how long has passed as they stood there in a depressing silence. To her, at that moment, Oscar's back looked depressingly vulnerable. 

Though she had seen him sick and distressed before that too because of her, something was different this time. She clearly felt that huge wall in between them. For the first time, she felt so distant from him. She couldn't bear it though.

She couldn't believe what she made him into. Before meeting her, Oscar's life was so peaceful and beautiful. He had a loving family and friends. He was happy and like any other normal person. But since he met her, she seemed to shake his life up and down with no trajectory. 

It was so unbalanced with problems. She really can't help thinking that she was the biggest thorn in Oscar's life. He would probably live a better life if not for her. But... What can she do? She has come too far to let him go!

They don't know how long passed. Finally, one of them broke the silence. Victoria spoke in a low voice. But her words were strong and determined. It gave Oscar his lost strength.

" Oscar, I can understand your situation. And I feel really bad to have put you in such a situation. But Oscar, I have no one to rely on other than you. We are both in a helpless situation. I love you. But I also love our child...

 Do you know, when I was young and watched small cute kids playing with their parents, the first thought that came into my mind was this relationship seems so beautiful. I admired the relationship between a mother and child. 

Because of that, I began to mature and realise my parent's affection for me. I began to understand their concerns and restraints for me. I began to understand their love. Then I began to look forward to creating a beautiful bond between us. But you know what, it was just me who was lacking.

My mother told me what I meant to her. She told me that since I was in her womb, she had already connected with me. Mother always gives more to their child but their child fails to return it. I thought I loved my Mom just as much as she loved me but only now, after becoming an expecting mother, did I realise the true meaning of a mother's love.

A mother's love is very hard to rival. I can't love anyone more than my child. And I don't love my mother as much as she loved me. This is the reality. Mothers are helplessly in love with their children.

Oscar, we women are born to be mothers. We are born with motherly love. While boys like to have cars and cool things for toys, girls always played with dolls and treated them like babies. God has created us in such a way. We are slightly more emotional and we gave priority to our families. 

I loved whoever my future children would be before even having them. Before even expecting them, I was in love with them. There was a time when I give up on everything including love and children. But you know what, that period was the darkest time of my life. For I even forget to daydream like a normal human being.

Then you come. You gave me everything that I lacked. You showed me the bright side of the world while I locked myself in the darkest side. You encouraged me to come out into this world. You made me want to live. You made me feel glad to be alive. 

If someday, something happens to you, I might live for a while longer with the support of our child but if something happens to our child, then I won't live long even with your support. Such are my feelings. I am sorry but I can't control my feelings. I just can't bear the thought of losing my child.

You are the love of my life. I might give priority to our child against you but I love you just as much as I love my child. I can't give up on either of you or hurt any of you. And that's why I know how you feel. What your situation is, I am scared to just imagine myself in it.

I feel so bad for putting you there. I am sorry Oscar. But please let me be selfish and ask you to once again accompany me on this happy and sad journey of life...

And I also want to promise you something. Not as my parent's daughter or your beloved wife. Not as Victoria but as the mother of your child. Let me promise you as a mother that Oscar, I will not let anything happen to me or our child. Believe in me. After all, I can't bear to leave you alone in this world and I can't let my child be motherless either.

So please help me. Give us a chance. Let's work hard together, Hmm? "