The Notebook//Joshler

January 4

today joshua brought me a jacket.

he knew i didn't own one.

i couldn't afford it.

and ohio winters are cold.

i asked him how much it was so i could pay him back one day, but he simply smiled and shook his head.

joshua is kind.

joshua is giving.

joshua is loving.

the jacket smells of his cologne.

i love his cologne.

it makes everything in my head...

slower.

he also brought me a single carnation.

it had a note tied to it.

it read 'for my dear love.'

i plan on keeping it by my bed tonight.

we have decided we were not going to share a bed while we are dating.

he says he wants to wait until we are engaged to share a bed, and wait until marriage for us to go any further.

and i agreed.

fully.

though, i thought i was the only one with long-term plans for this relationship.

i guess not.

we sat on my couch for a little while, his arms wrapped around me.

i told him i loved him.

he told me he loved me back.

i shed a single tear when he began to leave, but he quickly kissed it away.

"i'll be back tomorrow, my love," he said.

"please do," i replied.

so here i sit.

alone in my bed.

someday he will be beside me.

hopefully that day will come soon.

-tyler