today, josh and i had therapy.
and i forced myself to talk about how i'm... apprehensive towards the wedding.
i think it upset josh a little bit. but not with me.
with himself.
he was upset that i no longer had the wedding as a source of joy. especially because he was the reason.
i explained how its not that i don't want to marry joshua, just i want to wait.
i want to see how the next few weeks go.
i have a plan, too. in a few days, i'm going to go out of town with a few friends, and josh's parents will report back to me on what he does while i'm away.
i feel wrong for doing so, but i think i'm allowed to do it.
i don't know anymore.
-tyler
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The Notebook//Joshler
FanfictionWelcome to Tyler Joseph's journal. This is where he keeps his thoughts. The journal sits in his bedside table, and there are no intentions for anyone to ever read it. Though, here you are. Welcome.
