The Notebook//Joshler

April 14

today, after i returned from lunch, there was a laptop sitting on my bed. when i opened it, a video started playing.

it was joshua.

"hey, ty," said the gorgeous voice that i absolutely adore. "i know that i was just there and everything but i don't feel like i really got to tell you how much i love you. it's been terrible without you, baby. i'm not gonna lie. it's really tough. really, really tough. i-i'm not sleeping on my bed because i just... i cant without you there, ty. the only good night's sleep i get is whenever i'm with you, even though we're crammed on a twin-sized bed. you just bring me so much comfort, tyler, and i don't think you realize that. i'm finding myself randomly saying your name whenever i'm doing something, especially when it's something i'd normally be doing with you. i-i cry like, three times a week because i just want you. i-i want to hold you and take care of you and everything, b-but that's hard to do when we only see each other once a week. i don't even know where i'm going with this, but i love you, baby. i love you so, so much," he said. it was obvious he was about to cry, and joshua never cries. "e-everyday abbie asks where you are a-and i just say 'o-oh, h-he's on vacation' b-but it tears me apart to say that, ty. i don't want to have to do that. i want you here, with me. a-and i know it's selfish as hell a-and for that alone i'm a terrible person b-but i know both of us feel better-safer- when we're together..."

by now, i was crying.

"a-and none of this is going to change the situation b-but i just wanted to show you that y-you took me, a guy that rarely expressed any emotion whatsoever, into a guy t-that cries because his fiancé is away. y-you've changed me s-so positively, ty. a-and i've never gotten to express that to you. s-so here i am, doing it now," he said, laughing at himself as he wiped his tears.

"such a dork," i giggled as i sniffled.

"i can't wait to marry you and shout from the roof tops that tyler robert joseph is officially mine forever and ever. the thought of 'tyler dun' makes my heart race," he smiled widely. "i'm in love with you, baby. and i'll see you next friday."

and the screen went black.

gosh.

i'm in love with joshua william dun.

-tyler