today, josh returned home.
i had locked myself in the guest room as soon as i heard the front door open followed by bill yelling at joshua.
then, i heard josh walk past my room sobbing, yelling at his dad that he 'knows he's worthless and a disgusting person. he doesn't need to be told twice.'
i wanted to tell him he isn't worthless, but i then remembered what momma said.
she brought dinner to my room, saying she made it just for me. i asked her why she didn't make any for anyone else, and she said everyone else ate on their own, except joshua.
joshua would no longer have meals made for him.
i told her i would like him to have my meal and that i wasn't hungry even though my stomach was growling. she immediately said she wouldn't allow me to do that. and she sat with me and made sure i ate.
she then hugged me goodnight and told me to come get her if i needed anything at all.
a note was slid under my door around 11 pm.
'i'm sorry.
i don't deserve you.
i never did deserve you.
but i still love you.
you are enough.
you've always been more than enough.
and i'm sorry you wasted four months of your life on such a disgusting, worthless, all-around terrible person like me.
-josh'
and along with it was the engagement ring a bought him.
he no longer wished to be engaged.
just when things started to really look up...
-tyler
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The Notebook//Joshler
FanfictionWelcome to Tyler Joseph's journal. This is where he keeps his thoughts. The journal sits in his bedside table, and there are no intentions for anyone to ever read it. Though, here you are. Welcome.