May 6

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today, josh returned home.

i had locked myself in the guest room as soon as i heard the front door open followed by bill yelling at joshua.

then, i heard josh walk past my room sobbing, yelling at his dad that he 'knows he's worthless and a disgusting person. he doesn't need to be told twice.'

i wanted to tell him he isn't worthless, but i then remembered what momma said.

she brought dinner to my room, saying she made it just for me. i asked her why she didn't make any for anyone else, and she said everyone else ate on their own, except joshua.

joshua would no longer have meals made for him.

i told her i would like him to have my meal and that i wasn't hungry even though my stomach was growling. she immediately said she wouldn't allow me to do that. and she sat with me and made sure i ate.

she then hugged me goodnight and told me to come get her if i needed anything at all.

a note was slid under my door around 11 pm.

'i'm sorry.

i don't deserve you.

i never did deserve you.

but i still love you.

you are enough.

you've always been more than enough.

and i'm sorry you wasted four months of your life on such a disgusting, worthless, all-around terrible person like me.

-josh'

and along with it was the engagement ring a bought him.

he no longer wished to be engaged.

just when things started to really look up...

-tyler

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