The Notebook//Joshler

June 30

today, josh and i talked a lot.

i was laying in his arms in bed as we kissed. i pulled back slightly, my hand cupping his cheek as i mumbled against his lips.

"don't ever leave me, joshua."

"i couldn't dream of it, baby," josh said, caressing my side. "never, in a million years, could i ever leave the boy of my dreams."

i smiled slightly and nodded, kissing his lips softly. "i don't know where i'd be without you.."

"i definitely wouldn't be the person i am today," he said. "i wouldn't treat my family the way they need to be treated, i wouldn't be happy, i'd be a completely terrible person, i'd still have horrible anxiety, the lost goes on and on. but, with you, my dear, i'm the opposite of those things."

i blushed deeply.

"i wouldn't be here," i said. "i wouldn't be alive. i know that for sure."

josh kissed my forehead and pressed our noses together.

"i'm working on a song," i said. "i-it's about you."

josh opened his eyes widely. "y-you have a song about me?"

i smiled and nodded. "two, actually."

he blushed and smiled shyly.

"one of the lyrics goes 'i used to say i wanna die before i'm old but because of you i might think twice.'"

josh smiled widely and hugged me tightly. "you better think twice. you're staying with me forever."

i smiled widely and quickly nodded, poking his belly. "of course i'm staying with you forever. and ever. and ever."

he grinned widely and kissed my lips."i love you, ty."

"i love you too, joshua."

"i'm so proud of you," he said, squeezing my waist. "you're so amazing at what you love that you get to do it as a job. and you got signed! that's huge!"

i blushed and giggled shyly, burying my face in his neck. "oh, hush."

"it's true, baby. everyone i see, i have to tell them my fiancé, tyler robert joseph, is signed," he grinned. "and that he's absolutely adorable."

i love him.

so much.

-tyler