today, joshua and i just couldn't take it anymore.
we had to feel closer.
he gently laid me down on his bed, my lips never separating from his.
we both removed our articles of clothing one by one, and our virginities were lost.
right after, we both sobbed.
we weren't supposed to have sex until we were married, and we aren't even engaged.
but we can't take anything back, so we might as well accept it. at least, that's what we agreed on.
it was quite romantic, the lights dim and rose-scented candles lit.
i loved it.
he said he loved it too.
it was so kind and gentle, both of us whispering sweet things to the other. of course, we didn't want his family to hear, so we kept fairly quiet.
after we finished sobbing about how we messed up our plan to wait, we cried about how much we loved it.
getting to be connected on a whole new level, knowing that only we would ever be doing it with each other, and never anyone else.
we loved getting to make the other feel good on both a physical and mental level, both of us holding each other as we cried.
he asked if i wanted to spend the night, and i told him i will tomorrow. i needed time to think over everything.
that was just so...
wonderful.
-tyler
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The Notebook//Joshler
FanfictionWelcome to Tyler Joseph's journal. This is where he keeps his thoughts. The journal sits in his bedside table, and there are no intentions for anyone to ever read it. Though, here you are. Welcome.
