The Notebook//Joshler

April 6

at 12:01 today, joshua picked me up bridal style and carried me out of the facility.

he set me in the passenger's seat of his car, gently closing the door before running to the other side and hopping in the driver's seat, holding my hand tightly.

"my family had to go out of town for something," he said. "it'll be just you and me. all alone. making love to each other."

i smiled widely and nodded, looking out the window at the city lights that were illuminated in the dark.

we then arrived back at josh's home, and he carried me upstairs to his bedroom immediately.

he set me down on the huge bed with silk sheets and rose petals scattered on top of it, kissing my lips deeply.

we then crawled under the covers and started to strip each other of our clothing until we were both naked, looking deeply into each other's eyes as we held one another.

"i've missed you, josh," i said quietly, leaning upwards a bit and kissing his lips.

"i've missed you more, ty. it's been absolute hell without you, baby," he said.

"w-we aren't going to get to do this kind of thing again in a while," i said sadly.

"so let's make it memorable," he smiled, kissing me softly.

i smiled and nodded shyly, running my fingers through my hair as he slowly pushed into me.

"feel ok, baby?"

"mmm... more than ok," i said, gently tugging at his hair.

he smiled and nodded, starting to gently pump in and out.

i told him he was the most handsome thing i had ever laid eyes on, he said i was the most beautiful. we told each other that we were madly in love with one another. we said we're overjoyed to have each other.

we both eventually came, josh collapsing beside me. i crawled on top of him and just laid down, my chin resting on his chest as i looked up at him.

he ran his hand up and down my bare back, both of us giggling as he said i still have the cutest butt he's ever seen.

my hands eventually found his, our fingers lacing together as we squeezed gently as i silent 'i love you.'

we then fell asleep, it being nearly 1:30 in the morning. i hugged his neck tightly as we slept, and he did the same to my waist.

when we woke up, we didn't leave the bed. we just kissed and cuddled, falling even deeper in love with each other.

he took a picture of us, both of us giggling at the way josh looked so unprepared for the photo.

but, as usual, he still looked handsome.

even with the beard. that i'm not a big fan of.

at all.

i think he caught onto it, though.

so he picked me up and carried me to the bathroom, setting me on the counter and started to shave.

we also dyed his hair pink just for the fun of it.

we then went to the couch and watched tv, both of us giggling as josh pulled out a selfie stick so he could have as many photos together as possible.

i tickled him halfway through, and the photos look adorable.

around six, josh and i went to the wedding.

it was beautiful, and we even got to slow dance together.

but around 9:00, josh and i decided to head home so we could spend our last three hours alone.

we snuggled and held hands tightly, refusing to let go. we talked about how we were going to handle me being in the facility for a while.

"we'll be ok, ty," josh said, kissing my forehead. "i'll get to come and see you every friday and we can snuggle and kiss and everything. didn't jenna say we could maybe write letters soon?"

i sniffled and nodded. "b-but w-we arent gonna get t-to make love for months," i cried.

"it's ok, baby. we can write... stuff... like that in our letters since the people won't be allowed to read them," he said, kissing the top of my head.

"before we head back, do you need anything?" josh asked. "a new pillow? flowers?"

"m-may i please have your cologne?" i asked, looking up at him. "i-it makes me feel more comfortable a-and like i'm with you."

"can i have yours?" he asked.

i quickly nodded. "y-yes."

josh smiled slightly and nodded, handing me his cologne after i went and got mine from where i normally keep it. i also took josh's pillow and sprayed it with his cologne so maybe i'll be able to stop feeling so lonely at night.

we made love one last time, and i started crying during it.

i don't know how long it will be until we do it again.

josh drove me back to the facility, carrying me inside and setting me down on the bed, kissing my lips repeatedly.

"i love you, tyler. i love you so so so much," he said, kissing my lips deeply.

"i-i love you t-too," i cried.

"i'll see you next friday, baby. remember i'm always with you. even if i'm not here physically," he said, kissing me one last time. "you're gonna get better a-and then get out of here a-and we'll be back together in no time. and we'll get married a-and go on a honeymoon a-and we'll live happily ever after."

i snuggled and nodded, hugging my fiancé tightly. "i love you, joshie."

"i love you more, ty. i'll see you later, baby."

and with that, he was gone.

-tyler