The Notebook//Joshler

April 18

today maci and i hung out for the majority of the day.

i asked her if she had any ideas as to what i could do friday to make josh and i's time together more special, and she said we should just do whatever comes to mind at that time.

she asked me if josh and i ever fight.

i told her there have only been a few times in the past where we haven't talked or spent the night in the same bed not because we were frustrated, but because we feared the other didn't love us anymore.

she asked me why we would ever think that about one another.

i told her about the time josh had kissed emily then didn't speak to me for days. but eventually, he called and he told me as he sobbed and begged me to at least let him have one last hug before i left to go be with someone else. but it was all just too much and i hung up. but a few days later i called and told him i forgave him.

then, another time, his little sister was favoriting me over him and he got incredibly frustrated. he told me that he hated me for 'stealing his sister.' he was just being kind of... mean. which is incredibly, incredibly unlike him. i'm not really sure what got into him that week. his mother noticed i was quiet and asked what was wrong, i told her joshua was just a little frustrated with me, and eventually she heard the whole story. she talked to josh and then we met up. he broke up with me, saying he wanted to be a nice, kind, loving boyfriend, but only on his own terms and not because his mother told him to do so. but, i guess it was all part of his plan to get me back.

and we haven't really ever argued since then

there isn't much for us to argue about, anyways. we both are just so deeply in love with one another and give each other everything, there really isn't anything to become frustrated over.

maybe once a week he'll kindly ask me to stop chewing so loudly or i'll have to lead him back into the bathroom and dry him off properly before he gets into bed.

but other than that, we're as perfect as can be.

-tyler