The Notebook//Joshler

March 6

today, joshua and i decided we'd go to the driving range as a date.

and, of course, we had the stereotypical moment of him standing behind me with his arms wrapped around me, his hands on top of mine as he helped me learn how to swing the golf club.

and, of course, we both loved it.

though, he was a little amazed when i could hit the ball at the same distance he could given i'm so small and thin and he's so big and muscular.

he said i looked cute in khakis and a button up polo.

really cute.

we then ate lunch at the little country club.

i've never felt so gay in my life.

i then asked him if he would like to come back to my house for a little time tonight.

he quickly said he'd love to.

so we went back to my apartment, and he smiled widely as he saw it was significantly nicer than it was before.

"you've always wanted your apartment like this," he smiled as he looked around.

it's true. i always talked about how much i wanted my apartment. for it to be more like a home.

and now, it is.

he had an extra change of clothes in his car, so when we got inside, we both changed.

and i think he got a glance of me without a shirt on.

because he mumbled something, and when i pulled the shirt over my abdomen and turned around, he was a blushing mess.

i've never seen joshua without a shirt on.

i'm sure i'm missing out.

but, yet again, we're waiting.

waiting until we get engaged to do anything that might make us want to take things any further physically.

it'll be more special that way.

but, then again.

maybe we'll change it from marriage to engagement to have sex.

we'll have to see how it goes.

but at this rate, we'll be doing it while we're dating.

-tyler