The Notebook//Joshler

April 20

as usual, at 12:00 this morning, there was a knock at the door. and when i raced to open it and threw it open, none other than joshua william dun was standing there with his usual goofy grin holding a bouquet of roses.

"hi handsome," i smiled, stepping forward and kissing his lips deeply.

josh smiled and kissed back, gently cupping my chin. "hi beautiful. i've missed you."

"i've missed you more," i smiled, hugging his neck tightly. i then took his hand and brought him into my room, softly closing the door behind us and bursting into giggles as i was picked up and kissed.

i scrunched up my face as josh kissed all over, both of us giggling and hugging each other tightly. eventually, we were just hugging as josh held me.

we then got into bed and cuddled closely, unable to stop smiling at each other. we'd kiss every few seconds, my fingers combing through his hair as he caressed my sides.

one by one, we'd each say something we loved about the other, both of us ending up red in the face from blushing.

"let's get some sleep, baby," he said as he pulled me even closer.

i nodded and kissed his lips, mumbling a quiet 'goodnight' before falling asleep in his arms.

blurry hasn't been coming as frequently, so i guess that means i'm improving.

i'm actually sleeping through the night sometimes.

josh and i woke up around 9:30 as usual, but today, we just kind of laid in bed, hugging, kissing and cuddling, saying we loved each other.

i told him his video made me cry which made him blush and smile shyly.

he said he adored everything about my note.

he then remembered something. he picked up his backpack and pulled out a jar containing a bunch of different slips of paper. he handed it to me with a smile.

the little note taped on it said:

'tyler's one-a-day jar.

every day, when you need it most, pull out one slip of paper from the jar.

pink=i love you because...
purple=remember when...
white=we're doing this...

one a day, ty.
all my love,
joshua'

i smiled widely and hugged my fiancé, kissing all over his face.

he giggled and hugged me back, giving me what we call 'face cuddles' which is where we rub our noses together or something like that.

"can i pull out three today?" i asked. "just so i can have an example of each one?"

josh giggled and sighed, nodding his head. "i guess, ty."

i smiled widely and opened a pink slip first.

'i love how whenever you get really excited, your adorable dimples are even more prominent. i'll never forget looking up at you while i was proposing and seeing my absolutely beautiful husband with absolutely adorable dimples looking back down at me. i love you, ty.'

next, i opened a purple.

'remember when we took that really romantic bath while my parents weren't home that one time? and you sat in my lap as we kissed in the water that had bubbles and rose petals floating atop it. and we lit candles beside us so the room was dimly lit. it was so romantic. and i hope that we do it again soon. maybe in our first house we can have a bathtub in our room! i dunno. we'll figure it out. i love you, ty.'

and finally, a white one.

'we're going to go on the most romantic, fun honeymoon ever. i'll hold your hand the entire flight then carry you bridal-style into our hotel room. i'll make love to you and kiss you and tell you just how beautiful you are. and we'll re-say our vows at the most romantic, intimate place there. i'll tell everyone we see that you're my husband and you make me so so happy. i cant wait. i love you, ty.'

i was tearing up, and he was grinning. he pulled me into his arms and i hugged him as tightly as possible.

i put the jar on the table next to my bed before lying back down, my fiancé crawling on top of me. he leaned down and kissed my lips deeply, eventually making his way to my neck. i started palming him through his jeans, both of us moaning softly at the contact we hadn't felt in weeks.

he turned to look at the door, sticking a 'do not disturb' sign out on the door before coming back with a wide smile.

i blushed and smiled back at him. he crawled on top of me and i pulled up his shirt, running my hand up and down his abs with a wide smile.

soon, we were both naked, both of us completely under the sheets as we smiled up at each other and made love.

we moaned each other's names quietly, neither of us wanting someone to hear us. we kissed and hugged and held hands, looking into each other's eyes. i suppose for most, eye contact during sex is more about being seductive, but for us, it confirms the love and emotion we have towards each other.

eventually we both came, but we didn't move for a while. he stayed on top of me as we hugged, enjoying the first real skin to skin contact we've had in weeks.

but he eventually pulled out and plopped down beside me, rubbing my back and i snuggled into him.

we didn't get around to planning anything for the wedding, but jenna did come in with great news.

i should be out of here by next friday if everything goes as planned.

and i'll be back in joshua's arms all day, every day.

and we won't have to make love in secret anymore.

and i can have my phone and talk to my friends and josh's family.

sadly, it was midnight, and joshua had to go. he kissed me deeply before pulling back with a smile.

"just a week, baby," he said. "one week and we're back together forever."

i smiled widely and nodded, kissing his lips and walking him out to the doors leading to the outside world.

i'd be out there in just seven days.

but more importantly, i'd be out there in joshua's arms in just seven days.

-tyler