The Notebook//Joshler

February 3

today, joshua left.

the whole family drove him to the airport and hugged him goodbye.

they then asked if we would like some time alone.

we both quickly nodded.

we pressed our foreheads together looking into each other's eyes as tears rolled down them.

we couldn't stop saying 'i love you.'

over and over and over again.

then, joshua had to board his flight.

he gave me one final kiss.

probably our longest ever.

but i wouldn't let go of his arm when he turned away.

and instead of telling me to let go, joshua just allowed it to happen. he kissed the top of my head and waited until a released him from my grip.

i mumbled one last 'i love you' and he was gone.

and the tears continued rolling down my cheeks.

i looked down at my feet sadly as i walked back to the car, abigail jumping out of the backseat and hugging me tightly.

"it's ok, tyty," she said. "we'll have lotsa fun together."

i nodded, helped her into her car seat, and sat by her.

she held my hand the entire way home.

the duns had me stay for dinner, telling me i am part of the family.

so i stayed, and abigail sat in my lap during the entire meal.

momma dun started to tell her to get off, but i told her it was ok.

abi reminds me of joshua.

kind.

-tyler