The Notebook//Joshler

March 5

today, joshua took me out on a date.

he said he hoped i wouldn't mind if it was romantic.

but i love romantic.

i adore it.

we went to a nice dinner.

but when joshua picked me up, he was holding a bouquet of roses.

he handed them to me with a wide smile, saying i looked stunning.

i told him i didn't look half as good as him.

he disagreed, but we didn't argue for too long.

we didn't want to be late for our reservation.

he held my hand underneath the table the entire time, rubbing soft circles into the back of it with his thumb.

he asked me if i forgive him for what he did.

i said i do.

he asked me if i believe he's my boyfriend because he loves me. not because he has to be.

i said i do.

he asked me if he would be allowed to be a part of my future.

i said he would.

but, i did have to ask him why he started acting like we had never dated before when we were 'just friends.'

he sighed and shrugged, saying he wanted to act all tough so i wouldn't know he truly was hurting.

he apologized for that, too.

i said i forgive him.

he told me he still has plans of marrying me, but only if i'm ok with that.

i told him of course i was.

he's...

he's the love of my life.

the tear in my heart.

the one that's proved me wrong.

-tyler