The Notebook//Joshler

March 24

today, well, tonight, joshua and i couldn't keep our hands off each other.

all throughout the day and during dinner and while we watched a movie with his family, we just couldn't stop.

so, we headed to the bathroom for a quick make out session, both returning with a couple hickeys and new underwear.

we finished the movie with ashely, abbie, jordan, laura, and bill, and they all went to bed. we decided we should do the same.

joshua held my hand and led me up the stairs, pulling me into his room with a wide smile. we crawled into bed, just spooning and talking for a little while.

but, a little while later, i crawled on top of him, straddling him while he sat up in bed.

my lips attached to the spot on his neck that makes him moan, and he gently rubbed up and down my bare sides.

i pulled back and smiled shyly at him, receiving his adorable, signature goofy grin in return. i leaned forward and kissed his lips, smiling widely as i felt him immediately kiss back.

"i love you, joshua," i said, looking deep into his eyes.

they showed love.

"i love you more, tyler," he said, squeezing my waist slightly as he looked back at me.

we then just hugged for a few minutes, enjoying being skin-on-skin. i buried my face in his neck, just wanting to feel closer to him, but i don't think either of us were in the mood for sex.

so we just embraced.

i hugged him and used my hand that wasn't around his waist to gently move my thumb over his jaw, adoring absolutely every single thing about the feeling.

he hugged me back with both arms, placing soft kisses to my shoulder every once in a while.

i got up a little while later to go get some water, and he immediately grabbed my hand and started to pout. i giggled and told him i'd be back in just a minute, but he said he wanted to snuggle.

"such a big teddy bear," i giggled, kissing his nose. "we can snuggle when i get back. it'll be forty-five seconds at most, honey."

"okayyyy," he said sadly.

so, i raced down the stairs and quickly grabbed a bottle of water, returning with a wide grin and jumping into bed with him.

he grinned and pulled me closely, spooning me again.

i love my fiancé.

from the outside, he looks honestly pretty intimidating and dominant. the tattoos, gauges, part-mohawk, all the muscle, his height, everything.

but, he's just a sweet guy.

he reminds me of a five year old boy who just wants to be loved and make others feel loved.

i have so many random pictures of him, too. he always blushed madly when i do so.

then again, he does the exact same thing to me.

my favorite one (so far) is the one of him holding a cat that he found and insisted we bought food to feed it.

he's just too cute.

-tyler