today was hard.
very hard.
as soon as josh got home from class, we all ate dinner, then the dun parents took everyone to the movies, thought joshua and i stayed home.
we watched 'titanic' and snuggled, but, of course, we started to kiss.
which, of course, turned into making out.
we both got our shirts off and josh was half way done unbuttoning his pants before i sighed.
"we've gotta wait, baby," i said sadly.
he sighed and buttoned his pants back up defeatedly. "but, we don't know when gay marriage is gonna be legalized! it might not even be in our lifetime!"
i slumped in thought.
he was right.
"i don't wanna go through life not being able to show you how much i love you on a physical level, ty. and that's what's going to happen if gay marriage isn't legalized soon," he said, gently rubbing over my knuckles with his thumbs.
i nodded in agreement, crawling into his lap and hugging him tightly.
we both started to cry.
we might not be able to ever get married.
i love joshua with all of my heart, soul, everything i have, and i don't even have the right to marry him.
so, we made an agreement.
if gay marriage isn't legalized within the next two years, we're getting married overseas.
it isn't at all ideal, but at least i'll be able to call my soul mate, the only reason i'm still alive, my husband.
-tyler
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The Notebook//Joshler
Fiksi PenggemarWelcome to Tyler Joseph's journal. This is where he keeps his thoughts. The journal sits in his bedside table, and there are no intentions for anyone to ever read it. Though, here you are. Welcome.
