today, joshua picked me up at exactly 11:00 this morning.
he drove me to a flower shop.
he told me to get whatever kind of flowers i thought my grandmother would enjoy.
i got yellow primrose oenothera.
she always loved those.
he then drove me to the cemetery.
it was much closer than i thought it would be.
i sat down right next to her grave and i talked to her. i told her how my life was going. i told her how i missed her dearly. and i told her that i have a boyfriend.
though, she could see that from heaven.
joshua sat next to me the entire time, holding my hand and rubbing light circles into the back of it with his thumb.
he let me cry into his shoulder.
he let me crawl into his lap.
he held me while i sobbed.
then, once i calmed down, i told him i was ready to go.
i left the flowers at the head of the grave, told grandma one last goodbye, and returned to the car.
i cried the entire way home.
joshua carried me inside my apartment.
he got me into bed.
he brought me tea and tissues.
and he sat by me for hours, running his fingers through my hair.
and somewhere in that time, i fell asleep.
i just awoke.
it's midnight.
and i miss my joshua.
-tyler
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The Notebook//Joshler
FanfictionWelcome to Tyler Joseph's journal. This is where he keeps his thoughts. The journal sits in his bedside table, and there are no intentions for anyone to ever read it. Though, here you are. Welcome.
