༄ Sana Pov
Nine or none
I can't stop thinking about it. It makes me crying non stop as i remember this three words. I don't know how long i've been crying since after i knew that i have a brain cancer. I wish it was just a dream. I wish.
though i just found out, the doctor said that this cancer can be cured through surgery but it's too risky. I will lost my memories or i can't survive.
I don't want to forget tzuyu. No, i can't. And im afraid. But if i didn't get surgery, it will be much worse. I feel so weak that i really need tzuyu here beside me. She doesn't know about this, and i don't want her to know. I don't want her to be sad, i don't like to see her cry. God, i miss her so much right now. I miss my members too.
I kept thinking if i was selfish for not telling them since they said they will always there if one of the member have a problem or sad. But i can't tell them. I don't want nine become none. i wish i was brave enough to tell the truth. Im so weak. Why it must happen to me?
I wipe my tears when my phone's vibrate. I unlock my phone and start to open the message.
from: Sanny ☀︎︎
how are you? i miss you a lot sana unnie. I miss mom and dad already ☹︎ i hope you're doing fine. Im sorry, i think i hurt her feelings. I didn't mean it but she try to kiss me and i back away. It's hard to pretend to be you. But i'll try my best. Get well soon. Love you my twin ❣︎
I don't know what to think at this moment. Tzuyu must be frustrated and hurt. What i've done now? but i had no choice. I can't think anything that i had to let sanny to pretend to be me because i don't want because of me our next comeback is postpone. I won't let it happen. luckyly my twin sister is really look like me. She can dance as well and sing since she really love to become like me. And she always told me that she watch Twice shows and music videos. She also really like nayeon unnie so much. I wonder what she's doing right now? she seems happy when the last time we text, she always clingy with nayeon. Sigh. This is not so me.... I love tzuyu only, only for me.
No one know i have a twin sister. It's a long stories and to make it short, I just found out when my parents tell me that actually i have a twin sisters and because of the long years ago, my parents bring us to holiday and then somethings happen that i've lost my twin. I was still three years old that time and i don't even know that i have a twin sister. My parents never told me and they actually still trying to find my twin sister and they were so happy that my twin sister is still alive. And so, my twin sister live with us. We become closer but she had to stay at home because Twice is famous that time and i don't want anything happen to sanny.
I get startled when my phone suddenly ringing and it's sanny. I pick up the call.
" Sana unnie. "
" Yeah sanny? "
" What are you doing? how are you? "
" *sigh* thinking of something. "
" Im sorry unnie. I didn't mean to hurt tzuyu. she try to kiss me and it's yours. If nayeon unnie, i will be the most happy person in the world hihihi "
Sigh, sanny really love nayeon. I can feel she's really happy right now.
" Sana unnie? "
" umm yeah? "
" Are you listening to me? muh~ "
" Sorry. *sigh* "
" What should i do to make your girlfriend happy back? I feel guilty when she try to kiss me but i back away. Im so terrified when she's trying to kiss me because she's not my girlfriend. It's yours and i don't want to get strangled again. "
I chuckle. I always strangled sanny everytime i have holiday in my parents house. Sometimes she can be a brad.
" Sana unnie, muh~ you ignore me again. "
" Sorry. I just remember about that strangled thing. Hihihi. "
" Tch. So, what should i do? wait, how about the surgery? when you will do it sana unnie? "
" two days from now on. Sanny, im afraid. What if i can't make it? "
I started to cry. I want tzuyu hug me right now.
" Sana unnie. Please don't said like that. I know you're strong woman. please be strong for at least for your members and your girlfriend. You really wish to get married with tzuyu right? you can make it unnie. *Sniff* I love you sana unnie. I don't want to lost you again. "
I heard sanny cry too and i wipe my tears to be strong. Sanny was right. I have to be strong and not think anything that can me weak.
" Thankyou sanny. I love you more. I will try to be strong. i miss you. Please take care there and behave okay? be a good sana. Don't flirt to much with nayeon because it will makes tzuyu hurt especially when she's on her period. "
" Muh~ can i flirt with nayeon for a little bit sana unnie? "
I frowned. I have the urge to strangled my twin right now.
" You lucky we're far away with each other now. Tch "
" hihihi. "
" Go text tzuyu right now. Telling her that you are sorry for making her sad. *Sigh* i miss her so bad. "
" I miss her too sana unnie "
" who? "
" Tzuyu. Hihihi just kidding unnie. "
" you little brad. "
I hissed.
" hihihi. Okay okay. I will text her later and i will tell you if she replied back. "
" Okay. I will tell mom and dad that you miss them. "
" Thankyou sana unnie. Take care yourself okay? HWAITING!! No sana no wifeu!! "
" shut up. "
" Hihihi okay. Goodnight sana unnie. Love you. Mwah "
" ew. "
" muh- "
Before sanny want to say anything i already hang up the call. I shake my head and smile.
Sigh. Be strong sana. You can make it!
༄ Author Pov
Meanwhile..
Sanny talk with herself on how sana just hang up the call without her say anything. She put her phone on her lap while thinking how to say sorry to tzuyu.
i think i should just talk with tzuyu face to face since it's only me and tzuyu right now.
Sanny thought. so she decide to stand up and walk to tzuyu room.
But as she turn around, she's frozen when tzuyu looking at her without emotions. sanny gulped as tzuyu start to walk towards her while talking.
" Who are you? "
