Hide Your Heart

Together Time

After a few minutes, Paul came back wearing a robe. "Come on, baby." He bent down to take Tommy's shoes and socks off. Helping him to his feet, Paul closed the bathroom door and had Tommy sit. After taking his sweatshirt and t-shirt off, Paul held on to him to remove his sweatpants and boxers. "You're getting in first."

After  Tommy was settled in, Paul joined him and they leaned back in the bubbles. Tommy could feel his muscles loosening up. He winced as Paul started giving him a massage. "Ow."

"Tom, did you hurt yourself? You have a bandage on your wrist." 

"It's nothing. " "I, um, must have done it when I fell in the dark." He had forgotten about the cut.

Paul pulled Tommy onto his lap and gently kissed his neck. "You are perfect to me. Don't ever feel the need to think otherwise."

"I guess so." "Paul, could I tell you something?"

"Anything."

"That night I let Jaime in and we.... I didn't do it to hurt you. I did it to make myself feel better. I was so afraid of screwing up a good thing that I got scared and convinced myself I already had by letting him in.   I went too far. In my mind, I just knew you'd be mad so I lost common sense and let him finish what he started. I realized too late I was wrong." "If you had made me leave, I would have deserved it."

Tom, baby, you over think too much." "I told you I wasn't mad. In Dublin you felt the same way I guess. Am I right?'

"I was wasted too much to think." "I don't have an excuse for that."

Paul drained the tub and helped Tommy stand up. "If you ever get the urge to cheat, please talk to me first. It saves guilt."

They were soon back in bed. "Paul, would you feel guilty if you cheated?"

"Tom, sh." "That's another topic for another day."

Tommy laid in Paul's arms until he felt a wave of nausea coming.