Merthur/Merlin one shot

The thing with being a little

throwaway864 here you go, it took me a while to write this one. I hope you enjoy it ^~^

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Merlin had not told anyone about him being a little nor knew anyone knew this. All thought he was an Caregiver or some were thinking that he might be either an Omega or an Alpha, with how he acted. The reason was out of shame. His mother might not been that bad but she for sure was neglecting towards him.

She never liked little's and that was one of the reasons he decided never to show this side to anyone. His mother had never let him be tested so Merlin could not be sure, but how he was smaller then others and how the urge was there to do things that were not his age pointed towards him being a little. The fear of what would happen when someone would know made him decide against it. Not to mention he knew that the king would never let him be a manservant to Arthur.

Even worse was that no one could know about his magic. Merlin so far was lucky that both Gaius and Lancelot had hidden this from the others. Gwaine had for sure been pretty close in finding out both of his secrets.

Then there was his feelings towards the Prince. As a little it was possible to have a crush on people when the person is in his normal head space. Another thing that he hid and he was pretty sure that this one for sure was figured out by his best friend. The other after all teased him a lot.

The king seemed to be getting more lenient towards magic. Why he had no clue but knowing the other it might have to do with Arthur having a big argument with Uther. It was astonishing to him that Uther slowly changed this and he heard even that the law shifted towards magic can be used for none harmful purposes.

This led him to now being in his little hiding spot and wanting to never go out of this. Arthur had been a big jerk to him. More then usual and acted even more childish. Leading for him to think that the other might be as well a little. It would be pretty cool, wouldn't it be for the other yelling at him for forgetting one thing, of the many things that he had to do.

Mucking the stable, clean the room, clean the armor, and more. It was getting to him and Merlin had not managed to eat or rest the entirety of the day which was 6 hours by now. His body could not handle the strain any longer. Not with him having less then 3 hours the past four days. There were a lot of attacks this past four days and it led for him knowing that he would soon end up regressing.

That was why he ran out of the room, not being able to handle this any longer. The pain of Arthur yelling at him was enough for him to remember how his mother had acted around him. Merlin could not deal with this any longer.

The stress of being found out, and the stress that Arthur would be hurt by him hiding about the secrets. Not to mention that he felt awful about everything and even though Camelot was by now his home, the threat of Arthur being killed by assassins was there. It was just too much to handle for someone who was a little.

His body curled into a ball and sniffles went out. Merlin could not hold it in any longer and feeling a fuzziness in his brain. It was something that had happened and before he realized it he was starting to burst into tears with loud sobs wracking through his body.

He wished to have something to cuddle. Wished that he would have something that would take care of him, but he knew that would never be possible. There was no way that anyone would accept him. No way that this could work. His heart ached for someone that treats him with care. Merlin was in bitter need for this this. Slowly his eyes closed, as the exhaustion caught up on him.

Gwaine's pov

It was nothing new that Arthur and Merlin bickered but this was a new height even for the two. One ran out of the room and the other started to burst into tears right away. It was not known that Arthur had the tendency to regress but there were times that the other was a caregiver, until now.

This was rare and that was why he knew now that the other was fur sure both. A sigh escaped as he helped Arthur calm down. It was needed or else he would not know what had caused this. The calmer the other was the more it was seen that Arthur had not wanted to cause any distress towards Merlin.

"I am sowwy. Me not wanted to cause pain to-to Mewls..." It was said softly and he smiled slightly at how adorable Arthur was as a little.

"Well, then we should find him and that you can apologize to him, huh grumpy kit?" Gwaine made sure that his voice was soft and making it known that he would not let this one go until he apologizes.