Merthur/Merlin one shot

In which teen wants to die but falls in love.

A warning before reading. In this chapter will be mentioned, self-harming, suicidal thoughts. When you have this, please get some help, talk to your loved ones or I am always open to talk. 

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Merlin had enough with getting shunned out by his peers. No one and he means no one cares and all they do cause harm. Not even his mother cares for him and he was lonely, and each day it get just more and more difficult not wanting to die.

Which today was the last straw and eyes dulled expression blanks as he has thrown his door down? Even his mother was fed up and didn't even let him explain why the teacher had called. Like it wasn't even his fault that he had been locked in the basement of the school. One of the teachers decided to punish him like this.

It was not even allowed and against the law but what does he know? He was just the scrawny nobody who everyone likes to make fun of. Which was why he wants to end it. But not himself but someone else.

Merlin just doesn't have the courage to do it. So that he searches on the internet and finding the perfect person. They talk and the person agreed and he didn't even need to pay much. It was just that he really was done. So, he gets to sleep and not even caring anymore.

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The next day came and he panicked because he wasn't wanting anymore to die. Like yes, he was depressed and all, but he realized that he actually wasn't wanting anymore. Which was why he tried to contact the person but nothing. So that he let out a sigh and mulling over the fact that he just now made his own doom.

Oh well, he could as well just make the best out of the rest of his day or week even.

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Head on his hands as he gazed with a bored looked outside of the classroom window. It was boring and he didn't even have bad grades. Even when some teachers were assholes. They still know his intellectual.

"Class silence. We have a new student."

A sigh escaped knowing that he would just get another bully or ignorer. So that his gaze stayed where it was with no interest. Even to the point, he tuned the teacher out.

"You can sit next to useless Emrys."

Hand up and then down again, but not really caring why he got called. Until someone sat next to him. Which made his gaze shift for a moment and he was jealous now. That person had sun-colored hair, blue eyes like the sea, and build which could make the person a quarterback.

This person was looking like a prince and he was huffing out at this. Lucky him for looking that gorgeous. That person could be a model when he wanted to. And he was sure that this person was even a prat.

"So, I'm Arthur what's your name?"

To his surprise, the person talked to him. Even when it was just a whisper. Attention now entirely on the person and he wasn't sure what to think of this.

"Merlin Emrys, why bother talking to me? You shouldn't because you will just get the same treat-"

He came not even too far as someone told the teacher that he was whispering. Which was making him let out a sigh and just being more done. 

"Tell me the equation on the board."

Another sigh escaped as he with a bored undertone answered and gazing back to the window.