Merthur/Merlin one shot

Conflicted love

Merlin always had this small or maybe big crush on the now king. But he knew he could never get him. Because the king wasn't liking males. The thing about him was that he was different. He wasn't like other and he always knew this.

He had magic but not like any normal sorcerer or druid no. He was magic. His entire being was and the only one who knew he has magic was Gaius. The male even was not minding of him liking other males. Gaius even was supporting him and he was really glad about it. Which was something that he was scared of. Being rejected and so he hid this.

But deep down he wished that people just would accept him. But that was wishful thinking and he knew this. People like him get shunned even killed. And so, he gave up about thinking that he had a chance with Arthur. Gave up thinking that the king was different then his father.

"Merlin!"

His eye widens, and he tripped on the ground -or almost- Arthur managed to catch him. Merlin could feel his cheeks heat up and he could feel the broad chest and the muscles. And damn it he wished that he could not think of how awesome it would be for him to hold him close.

"You should be more careful; I don't want to be stuck with George and his brass jokes. A half good servant is not easy to find after all."

A wince was going through his body as he remembered the time where he had to work with the male together. His brass jokes were just...nope.

"Aww, is the cabbage head worried for myself?"

There was a pause now and I wondered where this was going. -Yes, I am worried for you. And I see you as my best friend, idiot.

It took me a moment to realize that he heard Arthur tell him this and it took him another few moments to realize that I was now down on the ground.

"Oh..."

This was all he could bring himself and he wasn't sure what to feel about this. This felt like he was friend zoned and it was hurting him damn much.

"Something is off with you. So, what is going on in your brain right now?"

"Nothing." -Merlin could face palm himself for saying this way too fast. It was apparent that something was right. When even the person who is oblivious about his magic realizes that you are being weird.

Merlin, this is even for your lying standards bad. Are you sick or something? -Voice held concern and even the face of the person was showing the same emotion.

"No of course not." -Once more he said it too fast and Arthur was looking at him intently a hand by now on his forehead and Merlin could feel the heat creep up because of this.

Well, no fever. But you are still flustered. You really sure that you're not sick or something? -Now he sounded even more worried and hearing this from Arthur made the butterflies flying around and he could feel his cheeks heat up even more.

"I- yes I am don't worry, dollop head." -But Arthur really wasn't believing it and it was more difficult for him not to blurt out about his worries. Which wasn't easy when you crush looked like this.

That's it. You will tell me about what you are worried. I can tell from your frowning that something is bothering you. -Oh god no. Now he couldn't brush this off and so before he could even stop himself words blurted out.

"I love you." -Oh fuck. This wasn't what Merlin wanted to blurt out. And so, he rushed outside in a panic. Now he will just end up getting rejected. And this was probably why by now the tears rolling down. Not even when he wanted them to stop.

"Merlin!" -Of course, Arthur would yell after him, but he wouldn't budge. Not after he just told the king his love confession. Which was one thing that he was always scared of. Right after the king finding out about his magic.