Secret Mistake 3

10.

You guys ready?....

RYAN POV

"So Ryan you are very quiet" the therapist said.

I shrugged "I'm not into speaking to strangers about my feelings!".

"I understand. I mean how uncool right!" She said. This wasn't my thing. I know my dad is trying to help us by letting us speak to someone. But I don't like it. "Ryan what's your favorite thing to do?".

"Play video games" I said.

"Which game is your favorite?" She asked.

"At the moment fortnite!" I said.

"Ah, yes the infamous fortnite. I'm guessing you're a pro in that game" she said.

I nodded "I guess".

"Ryan how about you tell me how you're feeling about your parents..."

"It's happened many times before so I don't feel anymore. I just wait for them to get back together" I said.

"So you're not upset. Or disappointed?" She asked.

"Not really... I mean maybe disappointed if anything. But it's whatever" I said. Which was the truth.

"Would you know why your dad and mom split?" She asked.

"I have a theory on why. But yes I do" I said.

"Okay, could you tell me?" She asked.

"Auntie Bria". She nodded "okay... so what do you know about it?" She asked. Here we go...

"Umm I know she would always be very nice to my dad. And I mean very nice. One time when we were living in Nevada I had walked in on them getting a little close. It's like she was trying to kiss him. But my dad saw me and pushed her away!. Thought that was weird. But Bria was always around so... when my mom and dad argued it was because of Bria. I remember my dad making sure Bria didn't come around as much.

Until... well... I called my dad because I needed him to pick me up from school. Wasn't feeling well. And it sounded like I was interrupting him. That's when I heard Bria's voice. It didn't click to me that he was with her. Until my mom took us on a vacation and I heard her talking about it.

Or when she would babysit me and my dad would come home early. I would peek out my room door and see her sneaking into his bedroom. And she wouldn't come out".

"Ryan... I'm sorry you had to be around that. But I don't want you to blame yourself".

"Me blame myself?. No I fully blame my dad. I was mad at him for what he did. But then I saw how depressed he was and how sorry he looked. I couldn't be mad at him anymore. The only thing I could do is try and help him".

"Such a wise soul for such a young boy" she said.

"That's why I moved in with him. The way he was going I didn't want him to be alone. It's not fair my mom has all of us and he has no one. And I know he did this to himself. But either I can be mad or just forgive him and help".

"There should be more boys like you" she said.

I shrugged "I guess".

"And your mom... what's your feelings on her?" She asked.

"My mom... wears a mask. She tries to be tough and strong. But she's neither of those. She's a caring sweet person. She's very sensitive too. But I feel bad for her sometimes. She loved my dad a lot. She would always tell me how she loved him and he was the first and only man who showed her what love is".

"Salem and Harlow?".

"My little sisters. I want them to be happy and experience the dad I had. Salem has gotten to see the man he is. But Harlow hasn't. And I blame my mom for that. It's not fair to hide one child from a good father. He did make a huge mistake but that shouldn't mean he should be punished by taking his child away from him".

She nodded "very true. For someone so young you have such good insight on things".

"I just want my mom and dad to be happy together. The way they are with one another I don't see anyone else doing that. They can't be away from each other too long. It's like they always find their way back to one another somehow".

"Ryan I can't promise you that. But what I can say is maybe they will. That's why we are counseling you all so all of you can start to rebuild. In the meantime if your mom or dad decides to see other people than it is what it is".

"That won't happen. Trust me" I said.

"I know you don't want that to happen but you can't control that either" she said.

"Actually I can... but go on" I said.

"How is it living with your dad?".

"It's like old times. Same house, same room. Different dad. But he's happy we moved in with him. I'm more surprised my mom let us move. I was expecting more from her. But she surprised me".

"You said you saw things between Bria and your dad. Why didn't you tell your mom?".

"Why would you want to hurt the one person you love. I didn't want to be the reason why my mom cried. So I just didn't say anything about it. And maybe she wouldn't have believed me either. Bria and her were very close".

"Interesting... but thank you for coming to see me. I enjoyed this session. Hopefully I'll see you again. Despite the fact you don't do these type of things". I smiled "yeah... right".

My dad stood up as I walked out. I could be so mad at him for what he chose to do. But I look at this man and he looks distraught. At this point he knows he's the full reason why his family is split up. But as his son and him as my father. I could only try and help him.