Secret Mistake 3

21.

GIA POV

"Welcome Gia, haven't seen you in a while! Hoping all was well" my therapist said.

"It was until I went on a date" I said.

"A date? Really? You think you were ready to get out there and mingling?" She asked.

"Thought I was" I said.

"Explain what happened" she said.

"I met this guy through a friend. And he was nice and still is. But he has this weirdo moments. Like when I left my job one day and he was standing outside. I was like why are you here. He said he was calling me but I wasn't answering so he got worried. Anyway... he wanted to make it up to me for being a weirdo. We went out to eat and when he asked me if I wanted a drink.. the flashbacks started".

"Flashbacks? Of what?" She asked.

I sighed "umm my friend Bria. Well I can't call her my friend... but when we were in high school. Her dad was paying for both of our tuitions. We went to this good catholic school. But she invited me to a party which I didn't want to go but she convinced me to go. We get there and there's people I don't know but two. Bria and her boyfriend at the time. Her boyfriend tried coming onto me. I was disgusted by it. But Bria would do anything for him. Even if that means drugging me so he could rape me. But the rape almost happened but I got sick and threw up and passed out. I woke up in a hospital".

"Oh my goodness, Gia! And what happened? Did you press charges?" She asked.

"Nope. I was confused. But Bria assured me it was an accident and that she was sorry. But she wanted me to keep my mouth shut. Or her dad would stop paying my tuition" I said.

"Wow, you could've died in the hands of your so called friend" she said.

"Pretty much" I said.

I'm trying to understand how you just looked past what happened and continued to be friends with her".

"When you have a friend who buys you thinks you couldn't afford or dream of having. Or paying for school. We were known around town. I guess the status is what I loved having attached to my name".

"You rather have status than have your life? Correct me if I'm wrong" she said.

"At the time my life wasn't worth much. I go home and my life wasn't shit. I could be dead and it wouldn't matter. With Bria at least I was someone. Do you know how it feels to feel invisible? You are walking around and you're breathing but no one pays you any mind. Unless of course it's too cause you pain then you matter for the split second".

"Did Bria know about this? The way you felt".

I nodded "she's witnessed the abuse. She vowed to never come over to my house again. But I guess she took notes on how to continue the abuse but not in a psychical way".

"Gia, when one is abused. There's always a chance they will get abused again. I don't understand why it happens. But some people can sense it and they take it upon themselves to do it. In your case your mother started the trend and Bria took it and ran with it. But the way she did it was through manipulation. She bought you things she knew you would never afford. That was her way of oh I will do this to you but I'll buy you a bag you always wanted to make up for it. You already had no self worth. So you wouldn't have saw what she was doing. Now with the situation with Delano. Bria always got what she wanted. Was never told no. But Delano was that one thing she wanted and he wasn't bowing down to her. Instead it was you. Bria looked at you as if you were way beneath her. And a guy who wanted... wanted you! She couldn't have that. But she played the game well. She pushed you to him. And then kept pulling you back from him. But Delano didn't care cause he still wanted you. But Bria stayed in her lane all that time creating drama between you two. So she could step in and that's what she did. Bria was never your friend. She didn't care about you. To her... if you had died that night... she would've went on with life like nothing ever happened. Bria is a classic case sociopath. I can only imagine what else she put you through" i sat there with tears in my eyes.

"It's okay to cry. You were victimized by her. She caused a lot of pain. Even with Delano... you need closure with Bria in order to see the light. And being angry at Delano for what she help do isn't healthy. Even though she's dead you said. You need closure. Why don't you write her a letter with all the feelings you had towards her. Tell her how much she hurt you. Just put everything in there. This letter is for your eyes only. And when your done... light it on fire and let it burn. It'll be your way of letting her go".

I nodded while wiping my tears. "Gia this will help you heal. The tears I see are the pain coming out. This needs to be done". I couldn't even say anything.