Secret Mistake 3

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DELANO POV

Gia and I had to sneak to meet up to have some fun. It was very late in the night. She had the girls sleep over my home in order for this to happen. Kissing every part of her body. She sat there with just her bra and panties. "You are my weakness" I whispered.

She smiled "aren't we just taking our time tonight". Placing another kiss on her hip. I was in no rush tonight. The first time we did it was a spontaneous adventure. But this time I wasn't to take my time. Roaming my hand along her thigh I felt something. Looking down I saw scar marks. What the fuck?.

Bending down and going for a closer look. Their were five lines in a row. Right by her private. Raising my brow "Gia what are these marks?".

"Let's not worry about that" she grabbed me up and kissed me.

"No I am worried. They look somewhat faded but have you been cutting yourself?" I asked.

She sighed "way to ruin the moment". She got up and got her clothes and started putting it on. I grabbed her wrist pulling her to me "answer me".

She looked at me "those marks are from a long time ago. And yes, I was cutting myself. But I don't do it anymore".

"Why in the world were you cutting yourself?!" I asked.

"Because I was going through a lot of emotions and did some reason I felt like talking wasn't enough. I needed to feel something. So I cut myself" she said. Forcing her to sit down. "Can I tell you something?". She nodded "sure".

"I never told you this. But I am a survivor of abuse. I never told you this because I didn't want you to see me as being weak. I was far from it. My mom... would lock me in closets for days on end. No food. I couldn't even get out to use the bathroom. So I use pee myself. It was her way of toughening me up. But she did that for her own sick satisfaction. Many times she would not feed me. If I did anything wrong that was the day I didn't eat. If  it was one of her bad days it would be three days no food. One time I wet the bed and she made me take a ice cold shower and made me sleep in the wet bed soaking wet from the shower. She thought if she did that I would stop wetting my bed. I was the only one going through this. My sister never once got this treatment. I always wondered what did I do wrong that she keeps on doing things to me?. So to get my mind together I read. Read all the time. That's how I literally taught myself different things. Until she found out about that then she used the books on me as a weapon. I had marks on me for weeks". Gia looked at me in shock..."oh my god! Why didn't you tell me this before?".

"I was your rock at the time. How would it look if I was as broken as you?" I said. She hugged me "I was being selfish not to see you needed me to help you".

"You didn't know how to help me at the time" I said. She pulled back and stared at me "I'm so sorry that asshole did that to you. Karma was right to come for her ass the way it did".

"Did you tell anyone about this?" She asked.

I nodded "Bria knew".

"Oh... she knew about it and hung it over your head. She played with your head like she did me" Gia said.

"Pretty much. She knew how to manipulate us both" I said.

"Wow, I'm speechless. I wish you would've told me sooner. At least we could've gotten you help a long time ago" she said.

"Listen... promise me you won't cut yourself anymore. I don't want to see anymore marks on you" I said.

She nodded "I promise. But I haven't cut myself since that time".

"Good, keep it that way. If you're feeling emotionally overwhelmed please talk to me or your therapist. Not a razor blade" I said.

"I'm so happy even though you came from a rough patch that you are such a great father. You could've turned out to be the same as your mother but your broke that cycle" she said.

"I would never want our children to experience what neither of us had growing up" I said. She leaned in and kissed me. In the time, we both needed each other more than ever. Continuing where we left off. After we were done we laid there. In each others arms.  "Why do you think your mom hated you so much?".

"Probably because I reminded her of my dad" I said.

"Wow she's sick!" She said.

"It's always the sick minded people that tend to hurt you the worst" I said.

"Obviously... is that why you were attracted to me because in a way you sensed I went through something similar?".

"You know I don't know. But I've always thought you were beautiful. And you kept blowing me off.. it reminded me of how my mom would push me away so it made me want you more" I said. There goes that needy trait that came out and I didn't even notice.