A New Beginning (Advance Bravely: Xia Yao & Yuan Zong) ~COMPLETED

Chapter 95 (Accepting Love)

I'm baaaack! And it's my 21st birthday, yay? 😂🎉

Anygaaaaay. Enjoy this chapter, lovelies. It's about time Zhen Zhen and Peng Ze find their way back to each other!

Let's celebrate love! YAY ❤️

Peng Ze's POV

There he was. Looking beautiful as ever, sipping his champagne while watching the sunset. He looked absolutely stunning and I had to prevent myself from drooling. Xia Yao and Yuan Zong were still slow-dancing, embracing each other and looking into each other's eyes with so much love. Oh, how I wished it was Zhen Zhen and me.

I sighed and looked away. I had to accept the fact that he was never going to be mine. And maybe that was how it was meant to be. Maybe he really did deserve someone better. The truth was, that I had never been really in love. I never cared enough or felt enough to be in a relationship. But I stopped hooking up with random people, once I realized my feelings for Zhen Zhen.

No one compared to him.

I tried my best to win him over, but sometimes even the best is not enough. And I was so tired. I didn't sleep well, because he was on my mind 24/7. My heart hurt, because I just missed him so much. My hands longed to feel his small hands on mine again, to feel his touch. And his kisses, God his kisses drove me absolutely crazy. Oh, what I would do to feel his full, plump lips on mine again. I looked over to him and just stared at him for a while. Creepy, I know, but I couldn't help it.

Only once in your life I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you've never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can't wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it's like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn't exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day's work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there's no need for continuous conversation, but you find you're quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there's a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that's so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life. And this was currently the case with Zhen Zhen.

I trusted him with personal things, that I never dared to tell anyone. I opened up to him, I opened up my heart to him. Slowly, I felt my eyes well up with tears, so I blinked them away.

I sighed and looked at Zhen Zhen again. This was reality and I had to accept the fact that he wasn't meant for me. That our love wasn't strong enough. Even if it meant I had to let him go. But just the thought of him being with someone else, made me upset and angry.

Before I had the chance to look away, our eyes met. His seemed to soften and he slowly got up and walked over towards me. My heart was pounding so hard. Was I dreaming or was this real life?

"Hey, Peng Ze..." His angelic voice greeted me and I looked up at him, falling in love with his beautiful eyes and his beautiful smile all over again.

"H-Hey, Baby- I mean Zhen Zhen." I mentally face palmed myself.

"How have you been?"

I really wanted to tell him how miserable I've been without him and how I've been missing him every single second of the day.

"I've been okay, I guess. How have you been?" I could tell that he didn't believe me.

"Not that good if I am being honest and from what Xia Yao told me, you haven't been either." I sighed and looked away.

"I've been miserable, Zhen Zhen. I've never felt worse in my life." I told him the truth.

"I'm sorry..." My head shot up towards him. What was he apologizing for?

"I am the one who has to apologize. I kept pushing you to date me even though you clearly told me that you wasn't interested in me, but me being the fool that I am, didn't believe you. And I'm sorry for treating you the way that I did. I'm sorry for hurting you. I guess I just have to accept the fact that you don't like me the way I like you. I have to accept the fact that you will never be mine, even if it hurts. So I guess I have to let you go-"He interrupted me by placing his soft lips against mine and my eyes widened in shock.

Was he really kissing me? What the hell was happening? Was I dreaming?

"You're rambling." He smiled softly after the kiss. Even if it was a small kiss, it erupted every single emotion in my body that I felt towards this beautiful man.

"Oh my... Zhen Zhen, why did you kiss me? I mean not that I'm complaining, it felt really good and it made very happy, but it was just so sudden and unexpected. By the way, you are a great kisser and I could you 24/7 with how soft your lips are, but like I said, I thought you were mad at me and didn't want to have anything to do with me, that's why I am so shocked right now that you kissed-" He cut me off by kissing me again.

"Shit, I'm rambling again, aren't I?" He giggled.

"Yes. But to answer your questions, I've had a long talk with Xia Yao. And it's not like I don't feel anything for you. I really do, but I was just scared. Scared of getting hurt again, but I had to accept the fact that that not everyone wishes something bad for me and not everybody is going to hurt me." I nodded and took his hands in mine, while deeply looking into his eyes.

"I meant every single thing that I said. I'm in love with you and I'm not scared to admit it, Zhen Zhen." I saw tears Form in his eyes and he nodded.

"I know, Peng Ze. I finally know that you really do love me and if we really want this to work between us, we have to take small steps." I nodded, still in shock that he was willing to give a chance.

"Can I kiss you?" I begged, not being able to resist him. He giggled and nodded.

And with that I smashed my lips against his.

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Finally a new chapter, huh? 😂

It was kinda rushed, I'm sorry for that but I was so busy all day.

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