After Forever & Ever

Chapter 101

Tessa-Present

What just happened...do we actually have a shot again at making us work?

I know today has been a pretty horrible day so far and I want to try to make his birthday better. Hardin goes and takes a shower...so I call Vance.

"Did he get in trouble?" He immediately asks.

I pause....."Yea they went through his whole apartment looking for drugs, searched him and made him do a drug test." I tell Vance.

"Did they find anything...?" Vance asks reluctantly.

"Umm they found a wad of cash hidden in the hole of one of his guitar....so they accused him of dealing." I tell Vance.

"Damn it Hardin." He replies.

"But he said he isn't he claimed that's just where he chose to hide his money." I tell Vance.

"Can you hold on a second?" Vance asks and puts me on hold.

At this point Hardin re-enters the room. I walk out because I don't want him t hear me talking about him when Vance comes back.

Vance finally clicks back over. "Hey you still there?" he questions.

"Yea." I simply reply.

"That was the rehab facility they said his case manager is leaning towards in-patient rehab or he will have to leave the program." Vance tells me.

"What...no!!! That will destroy him. He is doing so well in this setting, if he goes backwards I don't think he will do it." I tell Vance.

"I think it's already been decided, so Hardin will just have to choose." Vance tells me.

"Should I tell him?" I ask Vance and just as I finish my sentence Hardin walks in.... "Tell me what?" He asks me.

"Vance I have to go." I say to him and hang up.

I still don't say anything so Hardin repeats himself....."Tell me what Tessa?" He asks.

I pause and take a deep breath because I am scared of his reaction...."Your rehab called Vance and said you can either choose to do in-patient rehab or leave the program." I tell him.

"How long would the in-patient be?" He asks extremely calmly which surprises me.

"I don't know....I didn't ask." I tell him.

"I guess I'll just call Vance and see what they told him." Hardin replies and he goes in the other room and is on the phone. I don't hear any shouting or anything which is good...I wait for what feels like forever and he finally comes out.

"So how long?" I ask right away.

"He said it would just be determined on my progress....since I would be going into it on a probationary period since I already have a strike against me. But he asked and they said at least 60 days." He tells me.

"Are you going to do it?" I ask him.

"I don't want to." he tells me and moves his head onto my lap, laying flat on his back with his feet up on the arm of the couch.

I push my fingers through his hair. And he just looks up at me and grabs the back of my neck with his right hand and pulls my head down towards him and starts kissing me.

I don't want to stop but I am soo confused. I pull away slightly and he puts his head back down on my lap and now puts his own hands through his hair then just leaves his hands over his face.

"Why do I always have to screw everything up?" He asks.

"Hardin you didn't...it's just bad luck honestly." I tell him.

"I really thought I was going to see this through." He replies.

"And you can....Just a slightly different path." I reply.

"I guess..." He replies defeated.

I grab the chain on his neck and continue to just move it between my fingers. He is just laying there staring up at the ceiling.

"What are you thinking about?" I ask him.

"Getting high." He replies.

"Really Hardin?" I yell accidently jolting his neck by pulling his chain.

"Jesus....I was kidding." He replies.

"Don't do that." I tell him.

"I'm sorry....I was actually thinking about how bad I want you." He tell me.

"Stop every time we do something in practically the next breath you are wanting nothing to do with me." I tell him.

"I'm sorry I know that was messed up...I have just been really confused." he replies.

"And having sex with me won't confuse you more?" I ask him.

"I just miss being close to you and touching you." He tells me as he sits up and moves himself to the opposite side of the couch and pulls me so I am on top of him.

He leans up and starts kissing me again. Moving his hand down by my back and kissing all over my neck. He takes my shirt and pulls it off of me then starts kissing my chest and unhooks my bra from behind and pulls it off of me. He already has his shirt off from the shower and he looks amazing I am trying to stop this in my head because I know we shouldn't but I can't stop.

He is wearing grey sweatpants so I slide them down and pull his dick out and start jerking it. I decide to move down and give him head. He grabs my hand so that I stand up next to the couch and pulls my pants down. Then I get on top of him and he starts driving up into me. It feels so good. I don't want it to stop.

"Where should I finish?" He asks me.

"I don't know...probably not in me. I feel like we have already pressed our luck too much." I tell him.

"I thought you were on the pill?" He questions and stops thrusting into me.

"No?....you must be thinking of someone else." I say to him.

"Nice...really nice." He responds.

And gently pushes me off of him and puts his dick back in his pants.

I grab my clothes off the ground and quickly put them back on.

"What was that?" I question.

"Nothing." He responds and grabs one of the shirts that is lying on the floor from being thrown when they came in and destroyed the apartment and he puts its on.

I stop in the way of his path and put my hand on his chest. "We were doing so good talking and you just shut down...what happened? Talk to me." I tell him.

"I'm fine...let's just leave it alone. I want to spend some time with Emery before they tell me I have to go into in-patient rehab." He says to me.

"Hardin it will be okay. It will all work out...I promise." I say to him giving him a huge hug that he actually takes and hugs me back and takes it one step further and picks me up wrapping my legs around him and takes me into the bedroom.

"Again?" I ask him.

"I still want you." He says.

He plops me on the edge of the bed and pulls my pants down and then pulls his pants down and drives his dick into me. He thrusts into me several times and then he turns me around and starts thrusting from behind. He pulls out right before he is about to finish and cums all over the ground.

"I am not going to be living here anymore anyways." He replies.

I just shake my head and laugh and pull my pants back on. He plops down next to me and kisses my forehead.

"Thanks." He whispers to me.

"For what?" I ask confused.

"Finally believing in me...it means....well it means more than you know." he tells me.

"I always did...I just didn't know how to show it and I'm sorry." I tell him as I lean into his chest and just lay there. I want to stay in this moment with him forever. Because I don't know what the next few months will bring...