After Forever & Ever

Chapter 45

Hardin-Present

I guess I wasn't expecting her to send me anything.  But fuckkkk even pregnant she turns me on....So fucking much.

I don't see a sense in me continuing to be mad towards her. It's not going to change anything. Am I mad...yes. But I want to move on.

It's still going to take a lot for me to trust her but I can't do that if we aren't together.

And she's right I haven't been there for her...

Everyone has had to be there for me and Tessa has needed me most and I fucked up...a lot.

I feel kind of bad Tessa has to deal with her mom right now...I'm sure she is telling Tessa how awful I am.

Which lets be honest I can be.

Vance comes into my room...at around 5PM I have slept on and off most of the day. But I also didn't sleep at all last night.

"So what did they say about your hand?" He asks.

"Umm it's broken..." I respond.

"How long is the cast on for?" He asks.

"Well I am supposed to go see an orthopedic doctor because there is a chance I need surgery." I tell him.

"So did you make an appointment?" He follows up with.

"No I will." I respond.

"Tessa is sorry you know that....right?" He asks me.

"I'm not talking about this with you." I respond annoyed as I get up to go take a shower.

I can't stop thinking about Tessa and looking at the picture she sent me. I want her so fucking bad.

After my shower I text her and ask if I can come over.

"Are you sure?" She asks.

"Yes I want to see you." I reply.

She is probably confused as fuck especially how I acted when she was here earlier but again I don't think there is any point in me harping on something that has already happened.

I just hope nothing happens again...

When I get there and she opens the door you can tell she doesn't know how to act towards me.

I grab her and pull her in for a hug.

"I'm so sorry" she says again.

"It's okay." I tell her. And it's not but it will be or again at least I hope so.

"Did you eat...I was kind of thinking Chinese?" She asks.

"No I didn't but sounds good." I reply.

"How's your hand?" She asks.

"Ehh could be better." I reply.

And I can tell she feels bad like it's her fault. 

"How was having your mom here?" I ask.

"Ehh could be better." She replies.

And honestly I just can't take anymore small talk. She is looking through menus and I grab her from behind and just start kissing her.

"That picture you sent was so fucking hot." I tell her.

"Yea?" She asks.

And I grab her and pick her up to put her on the counter I keep kissing her all over and take her pants off.

She ends up hopping off the counter and takes my belt off and pants down and starts giving me head as I am leaned up against the counter.... "fuck" I say out loud.