After Forever & Ever

Chapter 121

Hardin-Present

Was it that simple....was all I had to do was tell myself to have a good day and it just happen....

Tess and I are both surprised when we walk in and the lights are off...did we get that lucky and Vance went to sleep?...

No sign of him up which is great. We get Emery in bed and then we lay down ourselves.

"What do you think about getting our own place together?" I ask her.

"I mean I obviously want that but I think we should give it some time first." She replies.

Which is fine...I get it....

We don't do anything just cuddle and it's the first night I haven't woke up with the fucking shakes but it's possible the weed has helped with that.

The morning I almost got arrested JJ met me down by the beach and he brought me some weed. That was the night I couldn't stop shaking....I couldn't take it....When the cops showed up I shoved it under the sand. And then went back for it later that afternoon.

Yesterday on my morning run I stopped off at this really fuckin gorgeous spot and smoked a joint. I don't know if that helped relax me enough to have a good day or what but I'll fucking take it.

So that's exactly what I intend to do this morning...I asked Tessa to unlock the door and she did then she went back to bed and I went out for my run. Half spent actually running the other half getting high which feels amazing. And why wouldn't I keep doing it...yesterday was the first good day I have had in....I don't know how long.

When I get back to the house everyone is up and so I'm waiting for a confrontation from Vance which he surely delivers on.

"Good morning Hardin." He says in a nasty tone.

"Morning." I reply.

He pulls out his phone and puts it on the kitchen island in front of me.... I pick it up and it's a picture of me at "my spot" smoking weed. (Not a bad picture of myself I must say).

"You followed me?" I ask.

"Well obviously for good reason." He replies.

Tess looks at me I can tell with some disappointment. "So you were high all day yesterday?" She asks me.

"Well not all day..." I reply trying to make light of it.

"So we're back to drinking and drugs Hardin....is that your idea of getting better?." Vance asks me.

"Vance what the fuck do you want from me?" I ask him.

"I want you to be a normal functioning adult....but you can't fucking do that." He yells back.

"Is that really what you want though?....let's be real for a second I didn't ask for you to come back into my life and you fucking love controlling everything I do...." I tell him.

"Hardin if I didn't you would be dead." He replies.

"That's giving yourself a lot of fucking credit Vance...." I reply trying to walk away but he steps in my path and puts his hand out to stop me.

He then pushes papers into my chest... "what the fuck is this?" I ask since I don't have my glasses on so I can barely fucking see.

"Vance....no!" Tessa yells grabbing the papers out of my hand and she rips them in half.

"What the fuck is going on?" I ask.