After Forever & Ever

Chapter 135

Hardin-Present

I feel myself ready to do something stupid so I use an app I have to find a meeting.

So that's where I am headed. I am going to Long Beach so that I hopefully don't run in to paparazzi or anything like that.

The drive is kind of what I need right now it's only a half hour away but I feel like drowning everything out with the road and the music...

I honestly don't even know if she's actually sorry....I think she saw the tables turning and that I was fed up and she groveled. And I just think that she always wants me to have to fight for her or prove to her that I am good enough....and that.....I'm done with.

Beyond fucking done....

When I get to the meeting I am relieved that it's pretty crowded so there is less likely of a chance I have to say anything.

I guess I'm proud of myself for being here and not in a bar...like I want to be.

The meeting is going pretty standard and I want to say it's helpful but I don't know I feel like shit. I was so fucking sure that there was nothing in this world that I wanted more than to marry Tessa....and after reflecting on everything since New York. I don't know if we can ever even be together let alone get married....

There is a girl here who won't stop staring at me...which is weird and I'm just trying to avoid eye contact because I don't know why she keeps looking at me.

I decide to dip out a few minutes early and as I am leaving the girl stops me. "Hey! Are you Hardin Scott?" She asks me.

And I try my best in the moment to give my best American accent. "No, sorry you have the wrong person."

She pulls up a picture on her phone.... "this isn't you?"

"No." I say and walk away.

I get to my car and just by my fucking luck I have a flat tire.

"Greaaaaaat." I say out loud.

I'm praying this car has a fucking spare in the trunk.

Which thankfully it does. So I guess I'm changing this. Which is annoying but I guess I have nothing fucking better to do today.

As I am changing the tire. The girl comes back.

"You are Hardin Scott." She says looking down at me.

"Okay what do you want?" I ask.

"I'm just a fan of yours and I was hoping to get a picture." She says to me.

"I just really am trying to have some privacy and you saw where I was at....I am going through some shit and I'm sorry I just want to get this changed and get out of here." I tell her.

"Okay sorry." She says and walks away.

I didn't like doing that but I just want everyone to leave me the fuck alone... 

Once I'm done I get in the car and my phone is vibrating it's the label.....again great.

"Hello." I say into the phone.

"Hardin...since the drama last night your song is blowing up even more than it was before and people are obsessed with what is going to happen to bad boy Hardin after his arrest...." he says into the phone.

"Ummm okay....so I'm not fired?" I ask.

"Fired....hell no. We want you in an interview later today to discuss the end of your engagement. And the fight and your arrest." He says to me.