After Forever & Ever

Chapter 134

Tessa-Present

Not only did I wake up with a splitting headache but I had to run to the bathroom to throw up and then when I got back in bed it wouldn't stop spinning. I fell back asleep luckily and when I woke up again the bed stopped feeling like I was on a boat.

I'm assuming Hardin is sleeping on the couch. I don't exactly remember what was said between Savannah and I...but I know I shoved the ring into him....which I feel terrible about.

I finally look at my phone and I see on a Instagram story of a LAgossip page I follow that Hardin has been arrested.

What in the actual fuck!!! I spring up and go out into the living room where Vance is asleep.

"Tess you okay?" He asks me.

"Hardin was arrested?!!!" I reply showing him the phone.

"Fuck." Is all he replies setting the phone down.

"Why was he out?" I ask Vance.

"Tess I don't know he stormed out after dropping you off." He replies frustrated.

He starts dialing his phone... "who are you calling?" I whisper to him.

"The police station." He mouths to me.

He starts talking and walks in the other room.

I pick up my phone to see if there is anything else on there. And I see a photo of Hardin and I standing outside and me giving him the ring back....

You could see the heartbreak all over his face and I can't handle it....I feel awful. I hate that the night went the way it did. I don't even remember drinking that much and it was an absolute disaster...

Vance gets off the phone and comes back in the living room.... "did you talk to anyone?" I ask.

"Yea...he is being charged with disorderly conduct and disrupting the peace....they said he was bailing himself out....but he would still have to sit a few more hours. I'm sure he will call when he gets out because he will need a ride." Vance says.

"What actually happened though?" I ask.

"He broke some guys jaw and fractured his eye socket....I guess he messed him up pretty bad." Vance tell me.

"Was he drinking?" I ask Vance.

"Tess I don't know." Vance replies.

It's 4:30AM and so who knows when Hardin will call us or be back, I just am so mad at him and this may be whatever alcohol is still in my system but I send him a text....that I almost immediately regret. But this just brings me back to old Hardin...

Vance makes us coffee and we sit in the living room and he asks me about last night.

When I told him about the ring he seemed really upset with me. He is actually still really upset about me leaving...

He kind of lays into me and asks me if I'm scared to marry him?

And honestly I am.

Everything I told my therapist and everything we went through was.....well a lot and I just feel like what happened tonight is the start of what could be again and that terrifies me....

I left because I was terrified. Terrified of us actually being okay....terrified of him getting sick or going back to his old ways.

I put all my fear above everything. My fear of getting stuck. My fear of watching him live out his dream and me staying still. I lost track of everything.