After Forever & Ever

Chapter 43

Hardin-Present

When I get to my car...I start my car and go to shift and I realize my hand is fucked up...again.

"Fucking great." I say out loud.

I put my car back in park and I look up a 24 hour immediate care.

I decide I have nothing else to do or anywhere to go so I head there. And of course there's a ton of people waiting.

I give my information and I fill out the paperwork and she tells me it could be up to a 2 hour wait.

Again....great....

I haven't been on social media in about a year right when everything was going down with court....so I have 2 fucking hours so I decide to reactivate my Instagram and Twitter.

I decide to look on Tessa's Instagram and I don't know why I'm torturing myself I don't even want to think about her or Zed. Or the fact that they hooked up but fuck it.

Her last post must have been when she found out about the baby being a girl. Because it's just a picture of the ultrasound. With a caption "you + me against the world, baby girl"

Every comment was congrats with a pink heart emoji.

And before that was her post about Easton. She posted a pic that looks like it was from when they first got together. In her post she put how "after a long fight Easton and I have decided to call off our engagement...." I mean she goes on to say much more but fuck.

In that moment and looking back through Tessa's pictures I realized her life was normal and perfect. And 6 months ago when I walked backed into it I made it anything but...

And yea am I am fucking hurt that 2 people who I fucking trusted did that yes. But at the same time I also don't blame her.

I won't tell her that because really she never even gave me an explanation as to why....

Like okay the first time she didn't know if I would be coming back...fine.

But the second time was the night after I planned the evening for her...that is what I am having a hard time with.

And that she was so fucking mad at me that night and made me feel bad.

And how she kept telling me she couldn't trust me and couldn't say we were together.

It's just the lies for me...not even that it happened. That she fucking lied to me.

I feel my calm starting to get away from me and I keep scrolling way down Tessa's Instagram and its from when I first left.

It's a picture of a quote and says "sometimes you need to give up on people not because you don't care but because they don't"

And I know I'm not innocent because I have put this girl through a world of hurt. And it was never that I didn't care it was because I did and I knew I was bad for her I knew I would hurt her...

I honestly don't know when I haven't been hurting her...

What normal person wants to go through all the shit we have been through?...

"Hardin Scott" a nurse says and I look down and realize it's been almost exactly 2 hours.

When we get back to the room she asks me what brings me in.