After Forever & Ever

Chapter 41

Hardin-Present

I'm fucking pissed and the fact that no one knows this is a god damn miracle.

But between basically being cheated on, being drugged....the drug test and everyone fucking lying to me I'm pretty fucking fed up.

But I'm going to continue to pretend like everything is okay and that I don't know anything and that this shit doesn't fucking hurt.

Tess and our baby is everything to me but I'm having a hard time accepting she did anything with Zed let alone not telling me.

And okay the excuse is going to be "I didn't think you could handle it" honestly fuck off. And if I find out anything has happened since I've been back I'm fucking done.

I have done everything to show her I am not how I was before...reactive and impulsive.

What would be nice is anyone to treat me normal and not like I'm this fragile fucking doll.

Ok end rant.

Ok...almost end rant. I''m not fucking dumb. You think I don't know Zed is the one responsible for me being drugged you can also fuck off.

This was all pre-calculated...

Why should I have thought I could trust him anyways....that was on me.

But my biggest down fall was trusting her. Because honestly I didn't think she would....

Ok....now end rant because if I keep going I don't know what I'll do.

After our breakfast when I play fucking pretend that I'm all happy Tessa asks me to hangout and I tell her I'm still tired..which is partly true.

But I also need a break on set....like take 107 of me being fucking nice and not about to explode....on her on Vance on honestly anybody.

But I'm going to fuck with them. Because fuck both of them for thinking I don't fucking know what's going on.

As Tessa is leaving to go home I invite her over for a movie later but I also invite Zed to chill. (Which she doesn't know about that last part.)

Zed comes by before Tessa. Vance is out for the night he went to spend time with Kim and Smith.

"What's up man?" He says as he walks in.

"What Up?" I reply and he plops on the couch.

"Dude let's get some people over here..." I tell him.

"Are you sure about that?" Zed asks.

"Yea why the fuck not." I respond.

"I don't think this is a good idea...but okay." Zed replies and is on his phone blowing people up.

About an hour later...
So many fucking people are here and so many people I don't know are here....but Molly and Steph are fucking here....

And although I obviously don't drink i decide to play  a game Of beer pong with Molly.

Tessa is about to be here so I can't fucking wait for her to get mad over this. Because again fuck off....

Why isn't she here yet?

But I speak to soon and next thing I know she walks in....

She just missed me playing with Molly and instead
She is pushing my laptop closed as I'm trying to play a song asking me "what the fuck is going on?"

I finally respond "just having a few people over"

She is pissed.

"Why....why are all these people here?" She asks me.

"Because I wanted to have people over" I respond.

"Really...Hardin?" She questions.

"Yep ." I respond without hesitation.

Zed comes up to me after Tessa walks away pissed. "I'm fucking hammered." Zed says...
"I can tell" I reply.

I start mixing on my laptop and...
next thing I know he's talking to Tessa

But I'm going to let this play out.

She's pissed at me because I'm having people over...and I'm going to let her think she has a reason to be pissed....that she is the one that should be mad.

Molly comes up to me and slides my headphones down.

"What do you want?" I ask.

"You."she says.

I just slide my headphones back on.

She mouths "you're a dick" to me and flicks me off.

The night goes on and I basically just observe. Tessa is just sitting at the kitchen island annoyed. And everyone else is partying.

I have calmed down a little bit and have since regretted this evening....

Now I just want everyone to get the fuck out.

I tell everyone they have to go which is no issue except for one dude.

I tell him he has to go and he tells me after he finishes his beer. I remind him where he's fucking at and make sure he knows I mean now.

And he makes the mistake of getting in my face and next thing I know I'm fighting this kid. And like most of my fights I black the fuck out.

Then I feel Zed grab me from behind and throws me off of him. I swing at Zed and nail him in the face.

"What the fuck Hardin" he says as he pushes me down.

Zed then pushes the kid out and he finally leaves.

The kid did get a couple good shots in I grab my lip and can taste the blood.

I walk over to the kitchen and grab a bag of frozen vegetables out of the freezer to put on my face.

Tessa is looking at me with disgust and disappointment with her arms crossed leaning up against the counter.

Zed walks back in..."what the fuck was that about Scott?"

"My bad bro." I tell him.

Mind you I'm still pretty fucking calm even after fighting someone and purposely hitting Zed even though he doesn't know that...But it is just us three now so I'm waiting for someone to speak up....even though I know they won't.

"Well this was fun." Zed says as he grabs the vegetables off the counter and puts it on his eye.

"For who?" Tessa answers.

"You mean you weren't having fun?" I ask her.

"Why would this be fun for me?" Tessa asks.

"I don't know just seems like it would be..." I reply.

"No you having people over....Molly over...when you invite me over for a movie is not what I call fun." She responds.

"Oh okay....then what is your idea of fun? Hooking up with him? Lying to me?...." I say as I point to Zed.

And in that moment I think the color drained from both of their faces...I am just waiting for something....anything....