After Forever & Ever

Chapter 125

Hardin-Present

'No one said you have to be with me.' I snapped her back out of pure anger....And no response....

Savannah has been pissed off at me the last few hours because we were finally getting close to finishing and Tessa starts snapping me pictures of her out drunk and dancing and then when she's in bed starts talking about being in NYC and then tells me everything revolves around me.....ohh and let's not forget her telling me last night how great the little apartment in New York would be for her and Emery....

Not only do I not know if I should still propose I have no fucking idea if she still wants to be with me. I thought the trip was simply vacation but it's seeming more and more like an escape like she wanted to be away from me and see what her life can be like without me...

"Hardin Im tired can we just focus and finish this?..." Savannah asks snapping me out of my thoughts.

"Yea..yea sorry." I reply.

We start playing and then Savannah stops. "What happened....0 you are somewhere else right now?" She asks me.

"It's nothing." I reply.

"It's not nothing." She says grabbing my chin to look at her.

"I'm planning on proposing to Tessa tomorrow and I'm starting to get the idea she went to New York because that's where she sees herself...and she didn't necessarily say she sees herself there with me." I tell her.

"She's a fool honestly." She responds.

"No she's not....I just think she resents a lot of what I put her through and that's kind of all coming to the surface now and I can't say I blame her for that I just thought we came out stronger and made it to the other side but I'm starting to see now that may not be the case."I explain to her.

"Can I tell you what I see?" She asks me.

"Sure..." I reply reluctantly.

"I've had shitty relationships and they look like love stories compared to you and Tessa. Yea you guys have been through a lot but I just think some people are better apart and I understand you have a daughter but that's not a reason to stay." She tells me.

"You don't know what you are talking about." I respond frustrated.

"You're getting upset because you know I'm right." She says.

"Let's just finish this fucking thing." I say to her.

"Then get your pretty little head in it." She says grabbing my hair.

I just have to ask Savannah one thing...

"What's with the coke now?" I ask her.

"It's just fun." She tells me.

"It's going to hurt you Bray and back to Tessa...who are you to talk anyways when you are with JJ?..." I ask her.

"Hardin Scott are you getting jealous?" She asks.

"Absolutely fucking not but I know you can do better that's all." I tell her.

"Someone who's peaceful?" She asks grabbing my neck and plopping on my lap. Her face getting really close to mine.

I shimmy up so fucking quick.

"So Uhh if we really focus we can probably get this last verse done." I say to her looking away and grabbing my guitar.

I can see her smiling and shaking her head out of the corner of my eye. Fuck that was way too fucking close for my liking and anyone else's. God damn what the fuck?...