infinite shades of blue (journal part I)

~127~

today marks three years since the day a couple of strangers saved my life
admittedly this is not something I plaster on my forehead and force everyone to listen to because quite honestly
I am scared shitless that no one would understand
and I'd end up severely disappointed

what matters to me is that three years later I have the tattoo on my arm
just like I always knew I would
and I don't have to talk about it no more than I want to and deem necessary
and if anyone asks
I ask them in return if they're willing to listen

for obvious reasons to me
I'm extremely protective of this topic
and I believe I'm right to do so
but I didn't come here to rage about how misunderstood I am
or how I wish I could talk about this more than I am able to right now

I came here to make a mark on this day
saying what has been true for a long time
whether I like it or not
and it's that there are a couple of guys out there who proved me wrong
with their music and their way of life and quite simply with their existence
they proved to me how much I actually do not want to die