I see you maybe once a month
and I see you drunk more than sober
the way you talk and move and even breathe when you're drinking makes me go crazy
the way you go outside every 10 minutes to smoke a cigarette when you're drunk makes me want to jump off a fucking bridge
you stay up till late
you always cry at night when you're drunk
I never ask you why because I'm just so fucking angry it disgusts me
I can only guess
maybe it's cause your husband left you
maybe it's cause you struggle to pay off your mortgage
maybe it's cause you hate your job and the place you live in
or maybe it's because somewhere between all of this
between your lying and drinking and oblivion you've completely lost your daughter
you've lost me mom
and I don't know how to forgive you
