infinite shades of blue (journal part I)

~34~

nothing really compares to that feeling when you lose someone you deeply love and you know you'll never see them again

and then you start looking for old photos anywhere you can think of and you wish you had made more so it would be easier to remember them

and then you try to remember the last time you saw them
what were they like
what were they doing

and you start to panic because you feel as though you're already starting to forget them

and you cry at random times of the day
and your heart squeezes from the pain
and you gasp for air
because it hurts so much

to lose someone you love
someone you never imagined could be taken away from you any day